[jbug]

I can feel the rollercoaster going down and I don't know how to stop it.

I think I know what started the decent into hell. I was looking forward to a doctor's appointment on Tuesday..yes I'm crazy was looking forward to a doc appointment...anyway I was told it has to be rescheduled and possibly til January. I could feel my world being dropped out of me as soon as I read the email and I thought it was being rescheduled for one reason my bloodwork not getting there in time but as it turns out its because the doc isn't going to be in the office. Anyway it started the downward spiral.

I had a decent day yesterday and today so wish I could just blame it on have a bad day but I can't.

I have emailed my T and hopefully she'll check her mail tomorrow but if not I know she will eventually.

Thanks for listening to me complain.

Jbug

[MyBestKids2]

Aaahh, jbug, sorry about the appt being rescheduled. I know those sorts of things can throw me in a tizzy! Lets cross our fingers and hope you hear from T soon!


Dee

[CrazyTinkerbell]

I'm so sorry to hear that your appt was rescheduled and I can only imagine what you're feeling that it isn't for another few months. I hope your T gets back to you tomorrow. I know posting on here helps but it isn't the same as going to your T. I'll be thinking of you.

[jbug]

My T still hasn't replied to me but I keep trying to tell myself she's just busy with her family she will get back to you eventually she doesn't hate you. But the evil part of my brain is saying she hates you she doesn't care that you are down is playing in my brain too. I hate having so many different diagnoses.

I am trying to just stay focused on the here and now and what I can do for me in the exact moment that it is happening. It is hard though sometimes.

Tyger I think can pick up that something is wrong because he has been extra clingy the last couple of days.

Jbug

[Schatje]

I hate the crash. I hope yours doesn't come before you can get some help.

[jbug]

I called my T yesterday and she called me back. That helped some. Right now I am putting on my happy face trying to say everything is ok when in true fact it is not. Maybe the more I say it's ok it will be ok.

Jbug

[Liberada]

Originally Posted by jbug

I called my T yesterday and she called me back. That helped some. Right now I am putting on my happy face trying to say everything is ok when in true fact it is not. Maybe the more I say it's ok it will be ok.

Jbug

Hope you're well

[jbug]

I'm doing a bit better. I was able to get out of the house this weekend and do a little for fun shopping. Here in NW Arkansas the third weekend in October we turn into one big craft fair. I love this time of year. Not to big on the crowds but seeing all the work people have done is neat. I got a few things for me and a few things for gifts.

As for moods it is still down but not as down. I still want to sleep and wish I could just sleep all the way through the night. Right now I'm only sleeping a few hours at a time.

Jbug

[conigogo]

I'm glad you were able to get out a little. You said your therapist called you back--will you be able to see her soon? BTW, you're not crazy to look forward to doctor's appointments. I look forward to them too. I think it's because someone is interested in caring for me, if only for a few moments. The way you described your feelings while waiting for your therapist to contact you after you emailed her sounded so very familiar. Hang in there, and do the best you can with what you have for now.