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When I read examples of manic behavior, I always see the same things: risky sexual behavior, expending too much money, etc. But for me, my (hypo)manic episodes are a bit different, like, for example: I have been driving a car and closed my eyes for a few seconds as the car keeps going, or driving really fast on a highway, or getting on a high place and thinking about jumping. My doubt is: are all this manic symptoms? does anyone else had experienced something like that?
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When I get manic, I like to tear up the highway. I have a fast car, too.
Also, I've experienced the height thing before on the 14th floor of a hotel. It was quite scary. |
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Yes--the thinking about jumping & I've also tried to throw myself out of a moving car...
I think I was in a mixed state, though, as when I'm hypo-manic I feel really GOOD & rarely want to do anything destructive--but I do do things to extreme that end up being destructive...--Suzy |
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Yes i jumped from a moving car and then had my husband run after me for a mile. I can't remember why I was so upset but I was so angry with myself and life. I ran over a stop sign started fights with strangers.
All of this and who i really am is a very soft hearted person who cares deeply for family and friends. I feel like jeckell and hyde. Doing much better on meds but still feel a little anxious. |
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Yes, I too have the problem, esp with the heights thing. Where I used to work, I would park at the top of the high-rise parking garage. I would take the elevator down from the 10th story I think it was. The elevator was all glass in the back so you could see the view of the city as you rode down. I would get on the elevator and stand there at the back as it was going down and imagine I was falling instead of riding down. I brought this up to my T and she said it was more like and intrusive thought rather than anything related to manic. The driving too fast seems more like a hypomanic behavior. So I don't know what it is, but I do know that the height thing for me isn't related to hypomania. I was definitely depressed during that time. DOn't know if this was helpful at all.
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I took my daughters BMX bike on the roof of my garage last year-proceeded to run off into the huge amounts of snow we had received during winter. I just remember the desire to get out and remind myself I was alive. Granted any form of injury was far from my mind or motive, I'm not a self harmer. I'm thinking it was more of a need to get out of the house and prove to myself I am still who I am in the summertime. Winter does evil things when your trying to combat social anxiety/cabin fever.
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yes. i think those fall under lack of impulse control
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Have had the heights issue where I can't go close to an edge or I just might jump. It's not that I want to kill myself, but because I have this urge to get down. I've been known to be impulsive, therefore I just don't trust myself enough not to jump.
I have the classic manic symptoms when manic of over spending, impulsivity, driving reckless, being confrontational, vulgar, irritable, grandious thinking, and hypersexual. |
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Many reasons at once. Wanting or not wanting to be some where. I actually like being manic........... I'll take that to one second of depression EVER. Get accussed a lot of doing drugs - But it is after all isn't it it = chemical imbalance |
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Hi Cat
![]() I can relate to your driving experiences. When I have been manic sometimes I have driven really fast and moved in and out of lanes like I was a race car driver. Thank God no one was hurt or killed. And no one ever reported me to the police. |
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I do some of those things, too. Especially the driving fast.
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I'm new here, but the episodes that I think are manic are usually signing up for things that are too big, like traithlons, etc. Other things are making impulsive career changes into fields I have no experience in, changing apartments, having arguments with people and really letting them escalate...when these things don't work out, I fall into depression and quit the jobs, regret the new apartments and apologize for hurting people during arguments, and just being really hateful toward myself.
Does that behavior classify as manic? I don't have "classic" symptoms. |
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I go through extreme mania every few days, alternating. (i really wonder i med would help anyway)
my expirience with these episodes have my answer as -absolutely- try not to get hurt when youre feeling manic though, as its very easy to have an accident. J.C. of TBC |
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Lamictal is a good mood stabilizer. Seroquil is a good anti-psychotic. But everyone’s biochemistry is different and different brands of meds work differently for different people.
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Recently I was manic and got mad at a driver and decided to follow her into the parking lot of a store (meanwhile driving like crazy!). Then I got into a fight on the monorail at Disney. I also have these crazy ideas about suicide when I am like that. I think thoughts like, "What will happen if I slam my car into this pole?" My pdoc upped my meds after I told him about this! |
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Hm, I always thought it was just me who had these thoughts ![]() ![]()
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I think there are many people who think like this. It's important for me to see my pdoc when I get like this. Mania gives you the energy to do these things if you are not careful. Mood stabilizers help me a lot.
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My hypo manias lasted quite long (6 mos.) & were totally enjoyable. I slept only 3 hours a night, but had extraordinary energy & had a physical thrumming inside me of adrenaline coursing through my body. I just felt so alive & full of self-esteem (not a common occurrence for me). I would join every group or cause (I call them my CRUSADES as I would get totally involved & would quickly rise to the top of the organization as I would be so devoted & do so much--even to the point of ending up on TV--and I am normally a very shy person). I would become a different person--outgoing, the life of the party, awesome tennis player, run miles every day, lose weight & get down to wearing a size 2--actually turn into a much "better" person than I really am. My husband liked me better (certainly better than when I'm depressed, but also better than when I'm "stable" as I feel like a blob compared to my hypo manic self). It is like being on a feel-good drug. I HATE having to give up the hypo mania, but after not sleeping for so long I usually end up crashing & then getting overwhelmed w/all I've signed up for & cannot do anything so I leave everyone in a lurch & can get very depressed (2 1/2 yrs. ago I did a suicide attempt after a 5-month period of hypo mania). So my doc says if I go 3 nights w/out sleeping at least 6 hrs. I have to call her & get highly sedated so I won't go back into hypo mania. I do have a lot of trouble sleeping. I have been dxed as bipolar 1 despite never having a full-blown mania because I have had mixed episodes (both mania & depression at the same time) & have had delusional thinking (believing something that is not true in reality). As far as the thoughts or actions of jumping out of moving cars or jumping off cliffs, etc. I don't have those when hypo manic. I only have those w/depression or mixed (the depressive thoughts make me think of stuff like that). When hypo manic life is so beautiful. I miss it so much. I guess it IS like a drug to me. |
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i am 41 and I STILL do crazy things like closing my eyes while driving or turning off the lights.. but only if i am driving alone.. I recently, in a manic episode, tried to show off to the kids at the skate park and rode a 3 yr old's tricycle of a rail and landed on my tail bone.. 1 month later.. still have to sleep on my side.. ouch.. but NEVER have I wanted to do anything like jump off a cliff when manic.. I only do things that make me feel alive.. a "high".. which always ends up hurting myself.. i am manic as i am typing this right now.. my bad.. can't stop.. just joined this group.. I need help.. cheers - Mr. E
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