You know you're borderline when...

Then your Pdoc tells you that everybody feels like that sometimes and right then you know he's in on it too.

Actually, I never told my Pdoc anything like that, but I did tell my Primary that folks at my command were plotting to kick me out. She raised and eyebrow but did not respond. I'm pretty sure it was after that visit that she put in referal for me to see Pdoc. (Think she may have been in on it with command)

LOLOL

Yep, of course he is in on it. Everyone knows you can't trust doctors or lawyers or teachers or....well...let's just say ya can't trust people and leave it at that.

(Also, some higher functioning animals are also suspicious.)

"also some high functioning animals are also suspicious"
ROFLMAO

LOL to ALL of this, ya'll just made my day, for now anyway!

Ohh phooey....What the heck...I know, know you have that dang sledge hammer....Some how you got it didn't you??? I told you I had problems with home improvement issues and your using it against me??? GRRRR!!!!!

(((((((Sitting in the corner thinking how to get back at cha'))))))))))))

(I bet she put something in that cheese cake.)
You know what come to think of it.... nope haven't seen it.

I'm speechless on this thread. All I can do is laugh. Wondering how you all are reading my mind! I need to have my husband read this so he can see what goes on in my head every day.

Oh there you go again, trying to always accuse me of doing something wrong every time I try to do something NICE for you!!! And you think I NEED THERAPY hmmppfffttt....Well let me tell you something MR...NEXT time I will make sure you get no cheesecake at all....But well I won't say cuz then who knows I am sure you'll probably go tell somebody and say I was threatening you and your life is at risk or something and I I AM UNSTABLE HUH whose paranoid now????

LOL.....OMG thank you so much for helping me laugh...........

Hey bpdmess,

Is this not the greatest? I mean it's such a relief to know that what goes on in our heads is not just our own craziness and it's actually funny to laugh at..Not only ourselves but each other? This has been therapy in it's own thread right here for me....So if you think of anything jump in...

Yes it is quite therapeutic. Helps to laugh at an other wise serious issue for us all. You joke but your post about looking at people's friends list and thinking people don't like my post, I really do that. Thinking man I don't even fit in here. Then you made that post I laughed so hard at my self. Felt pretty silly. So thank you for helping me laugh too.

No I know it's seems silly but there's truth in what I write.... However in writing and laughing yes it dose seems to make it not so bad? Arg...You are all helping me to laugh at myself and not feel so bad about me and the fact that we share some of the same thought's

I am glad I can help lighten your day. It is nice to have a quazi safe place to vent and laugh with people like me. It is uncanny how much alike we all think.

Yes. There is truth in what we write....Funny how jokes work like good lies: you never just make something up; you take the truth and spin it....

I am so happy everyone is having fun!!!

I created this thread cause I found when I delve too much into why I'm "messed up" I wind up getting worse. So when I write posts about the crazy stuff I think or do and other people can laugh and identify with that behavior I actually improve and therefore, become less controlled by my emotions - which is really what we are all trying to do.

There is talk of turning the name "BPD" into "Emotional Dysregulation Disorder." But I don't like that name. I like the name borderline...it sounds sexy

you are washing dishes and thinking that everyone seems to want to be borderline lately and start getting upset about the "outsiders" trying to steal our diagnosis so they can be cool too....

and then after the rage wears off coming to your senses and realizing no one, including me is happy this way and I'd give anything NOT to be this way....

Yeah, I suppose they could TRY to be borderline, but NOBODY has the stamina we do! We are tough, I mean tough. Gotta be.

(How the heck did you hijack my settings??? this doesn't look like my writing...IT"S YOU! I'm YOU! Wait....I thought I was Clueless....Wasn't that the arrangement?! WTH???)

I hope I can post here even if I'm not officially diagnosed with BPD. But...

You know you're borderline when your friend starts talking to your sister and you instantly start to think "OMG, what if she doesn't like me anymore and she starts to like my sister instead?" And it ruins your whole time out with your friend.

Or when as a child your sister gets congratulations on her performance in a play and you instantly think your family hates you and have a sudden urge to steal all the attention so you start having a temper tantrum just so people will pay attention to you.

your husband goes with you to t and all your t does is say hi to him and you just know t likes him better than you. he's much more interesting to talk to and you're sure t won't want to talk to you anymore.

LOL--my husband and kids are going to see my therapist this weekend....I have to stay home with the dogs. I'm sure my therapist prefers them to me, and they're all going to sit and complain about me and laugh at me. Yep. For sure. But I'll fix 'em. I'm going to make myself brownies and EAT the WHOLE pan! That'll fix 'em! Hah!

When you just know Sofia is talking about you and all you want to do is cry cause You realize You don't fit in anywhere and no one is ever going to except You because your just to much of a freaking weirdo

OMG this is so true I swear!! I can almost see my T's empathy for my husband when he starts to say the things I do then the rage starts to come out and she's looking at me trying to calm me down....I think in my head oh I see they had an outside phone call to set me up before the session just to make me seem worse off then I was...There really in this together to make sure that I never recover from BPD Then T calms me down and let's husband know it's not him and how good he's doing....

Good one bpd mess seriously though this happens

I was never officially diagnosed with BPD either. In fact, I told my psychiatrist I had the disorder and she said "Oh really? I don't see it." Then I went ahead and pointed out all my behavior that is very borderline and she said "Well...if you think you are then you probably are." (Big freakin help she was.)

You know yourself better than anyone. After reading in depth about BPD I knew for sure this is who I was. Also, I know I will never completely recover from this disorder and I always need to watch out for when I'm "border-lining."

It's good to know I'm not the only one. My psychiatrist says I have some kind of mood disorder, but she refuses to diagnose me with one, and it can get kind of nerve racking, so I know where you're coming from. I'm planning on bringing up my thoughts that I may have BPD to her, and see where it goes from there. It just feels better to have an official diagnosis to make sure you're not just going crazy, if you get what I mean. But I guess I should have the freedom to identify myself this way if it's what I believe I am. I can definitely relate to you all very well.

FYI-

Borderline Personality Disorder DSM IV Criteria

1. frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behavior covered in Criterion 5.
2. a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.
3. identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self.
4. impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating). Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behavior covered in Criterion 5.
5. recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior
6. affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days).
7. chronic feelings of emptiness
8. inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)
9. transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms
The DSM IV goes on to say:
The essential feature of Borderline Personality Disorder is a pervasive pattern of instability of interpersonal relationships, self-image, and affects, and marked impulsivity that begins by early adulthood and is present in a variety of contexts.