You know you're borderline when...

LMAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The phone rings and the person calling hangs up before you get a chance to say "hello" and you feel rejected and think "f**k you! I don't want to talk to them anyway!"

anyone else??? When your at work, and you have put stuff in notes for all to read that could help them; and no one reads, then on The following Tuesday the other members start squarking about how this is not done, and this was done too early and this was done WRONG----- You go back to your one note; Copy it - Put BIG RED LETTERS saying IF ANYONE CARED TO READ..Also at the end you put a note- WHY did so many disregard me?..... then spend that whole day (night for my case) but planning suicide and writing letters to the few that maybe would care. you have your plan but then look up if you fail at this what could happen, and you decided-- lets wait to see if it gets worse for if I fail on this; it would be horrible than what is now .. Then with in that day after talking to your Significant other, when you should be sleeping, you Then feel awesome great and that continues into the actual next day for you- and nothing can get you done that day, till you go home and your significant other is tired so they are not in the same high happy mood as you-- you start to slump back and feel numb and empty-- no one gets you and no one wants to see you happy... then on the following day, you try to do your projects that keep you in good spirits; but when going back to work- you go off the "handle"/Flip out again; But this time it is verbally to another--- and they say you are attacking them and jumping over their case-- This due to the note that was brought up Tuesday is totally disregarded and basically this DOES show you that everyone male in this god damn work place does disregard you-- the sadest part of this story is the one male that said "good job new male" (and this male knew about the whole note) IS your significant other...

I don't mean to sound sexiest but I do feel the males at my work really just disgard the females; unless you have your breasts showing-- and it is true- and it upsets me so, and I feel so down right now about things again. I hate this.

I know i need to get a grip-- I know they like to call me Bipolar- but if I was in hypo mania or mania--- could I or would I be getting so suicidal one day then being high again with emotions. (I Guess this is the Mixed state of Bipolar--as I read).

This med is not doing anything for me unless this is my "rapid cycling" and it is just being slowed down more....

I am sorry for posting this here but I feel it fits but and I am not sure if anyone can relate- even in the Bipolar field I am not sure if any one can relate.

Be well all and sorry for the bother.

You read what others write on fb and forums and you want to reach through you screen and choke the ***** out of them! Aaaaaaaarrrgghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ya...that sounds a little bipolar which I have as well as BPD. I have both!!

I hate facebook!!!!!!

You feel really sick (physically caused by suicidality), so don't go to yoga with a friend. Then friend gets pissed and says you aren't a very good friend. You melt down and want to die because you should have known better to think you could actually have a friend!

Triple hugs on that one!!!

you call crisis for support but are not able to say what the main issue is so you make like a smaller one is the big one. but then when you hang up you are annoyed because 'they didn't listen and don't understand what the main problem is'. :s

You are talking to a friend and the she says "You could have more friends. That would be good for you" and then you think she doesnt want you as a friend anymore. "What did I say wrong???" - you think.

or she says "OK, I have to go to work now" and you think "Oh yeah, okay. Thats just an excuse for not talking to me anymore. She doesnt even like me, Im so stupid" No one will ever love me! I should kill myself, no one would miss me. I wont talk to her again! Never again! ............... well maybe next week... okay, maybe in 2 days just to say hi. No, I'll talk to her tomorrow but only once... she will forget me if I dont talk to her and I'll have no friends! I cant let it happen!" .... and there you go.... =/

...you take what little extra money you have and invest it in an espresso maker along with all the extras that go with it (grinder, bean coffee, flavored syrups, whip cream, etc.) and use it for the first time all excited...you spill half of the ground beans all over the place, the steamer doesn't get the milk hot and frothy, the espresso comes out watered down and cold, there are a million different pieces to clean...so you end up swearing and cursing, scream out why me, this always happens to me, everything goes wrong, and I...
pull out the old, regular coffee pot for the next cup of coffee.

Glad to know that I'm not the only one who does stuff like this. I swear one little thing goes wrong and I fall to pieces and the negative self talk starts. And I wonder why do I even try!

And how are we suppose to function w/o coffee! So yes I see how this is a major disaster.

When you stick with a boyfriend for 10 years and has cheated on you with three women. Then he dumps you and you feel like dying because you don't want to be alone. And you feel like you are not good enough for anyone.

"And you feel like you are not good enough for anyone."

Aaahh Littleprincess, but you are. You are not only good enough for yourself, but 'perfect' for us here.

You know you're BPD when you throw your dinner plate down the stairs because it simply has cheese on it.

...you go back and forth between feeling fine & sure you can handle life's struggles and absolutely positive you need to be put out of your misery like a painfully injured horse at a race track... 17 times within the span of 90 minutes, just because your parents decide to talk to you about your plans for the future.

or you make your first post on psychcentral and no one replies within the first 2 minutes so you decide everyone hates you xD

your T tells you to call the crisis team if they don't get back to you. when you try cuz it's been 4 hours and when you call the number doesn't connect you decided you'll never talk to them ever again.

You make plans in your head and when they get messed up, the whole world is always over.

Your boyfriend breaks up with you because you start yelling at him when he says, "Can we leave soon sweetie?"
You yell and then that anger turns into another unresolved resentment involving him, then another, then another, until you find yourself completely attacking him. And when he says, "You depend on me too much, you need to lose your fear of being alone" you just scoff, though it's obviously true.
Then he leaves, ignores you for a day, and breaks up with you. In turn you get as drunk as humanly possible, black out and end up waking the next morning to find yourself looking like an abuse victim, when really it was just you doing it to yourself. Blood on the walls, floors, holes in everything, and your friends just say, you wouldn't stop breaking glass and throwing chair, or cutting yourself. Yet you remember nothing.
Then when he apologizes, comes back and says he wants to make it work, you think maybe it could work for awhile. But then he's gone again, and you torture yourself by looking at pictures of him from the past that make your blood boil, and you want to hate him all over again.
Finally, days later after acting stand offish all day, when you talk on the phone and nonchalantly ask if he'd like to come over tonight, he first says yes, then you mention you'll probably go to sleep soon. He in turn says, maybe we should just get together tomorrow then.
And then you hate him all over again, tell him this will never work, and to just leave you alone. Then you can't eat, and you definitely don't get to sleep at a reasonable hour, and stay up all night upset- when once the tomorrow held so much promise. So many plans. Now it's just another disaster, another ruined plan.

lol Yeah I know what you mean. XD

when it takes ten times as long to get over something...and meanwhile other stuff is happening to get over also...

so it just piles up...

hence ...overwhelmed

when you don't feel like you shouldn't post anywhere b/c lets face it you don't have it as bad as others and they'll probably just think you're having a pitty party. Even though, some have asked if you're OK b/c you've stopped posting.

When you reluctantly see your pdoc for the first time in months and every time she opens her mouth, you tell her to "f**k off"

when your t tells you to call the on-call t if you have SI urges, and you tell her "maybe" all the while meaning "seriously? you actually think I would call them? You know me better than that by now..."

you go to the emergency pdoc and T appt your T organized when you leave you are so angry but you don't even know why that you decide to not talk to them anymore even though your meant to call your T daily.