So I just started this tumblr...

http://bpdbreakdowns.tumblr.com/

My goal is to present some kind of alternative to the doom-and-gloom medical narrative of being Borderline, but I need some help because not a whole lot of that exists. If anyone has any ideas that might help with that goal, or anything they've written or seen that's even a little bit BPD-posi, or not even BPD-posi just not all medical and pathologizing, I'd love to see that so I could post it. I'm also looking for more thorough criticisms of the medical narrative or other hurtful neurotypicalist ********.

One thing I kind of had in mind was posting pictures of borderline people crying, because I think that that's beautiful and I think that that's great because we need to do it every so often. I had a breakdown last night and I'm kind of kicking myself for not taking a picture, but that's okay because I give it a week tops before I have another one.

I was also thinking about posting some of the stuff from the "you know you're borderline if..." thread, because that stuff has definitely cheered me up in a really meaningful long-term way and it's made some of the horrible stuff I go through seem less permanent because I can always think back to when I was making fun of this situation with people who understand and that I'm not going to feel horrible forever. How would everyone feel about that?

Awesome, good for you!

You're right. Not a whole lot exists about the benefits of being Borderline. And there are benefits. The ability to feel emotions so strongly that you are able to perceive other peoples moods fast and accurately. Almost as if you have ESP.

Oh I like you.

I like being borderline, actually! I like that my personality changes radically every few months or so! I like feeling my emotions so strongly that **** gets weird if I don't have at least one or two emotional breakdowns a week! I like that I can dedicate so much time and energy to people I love and it never feels like a chore, and I like that when I'm upset everyone knows and feels it!

not everyone is like me and that's ok, I like that there's lots of different people in the world and I like that I'm one of them!

wanna know why I'm depressed so much? because my mind is a storm and every time I try to talk about it it's just medical jargon about how disordered I am at best, and at worst it's **** about how I'm "attention seeking" and being manipulative and abusive. **** that noise.

Also I wasn't really clear about this in the opening post, but I'm looking for submissions of pictures of borderline people crying, along with maybe some stuff about why you're glad you had that breakdown!

There are three borderline folks in this thread already so I expect something by tomorrow.

(jk! no pressure!)

I have honestly always suspected I have ESP.

I know what you mean. Borderlines get a bad rap. I've read one article about dating a borderline. It said "if your in a relationship get out NOW," and basically made us out to be a bunch of psychotic manipulators.

It's such a ridiculous assumption since the main problem of BPD's is Emotional Disregulation. Borderlines are way more harmful towards themselves than to others.

They're basically all like that. I've posted a couple articles about topping or domming a borderline in the context of BDSM and both of them are wonderful lovely articles (I say this as a masochistic borderline sub), but that is literally the only thing I've found about us in sexual relationships that isn't "GET OUT NOW THEY WILL KILL YOU". I just found this site called http://www.borderlinewaif.com/ which is basically the most upsetting thing ever, it's a whole site set up to warning people not to date borderline waifs.

Send me the link to the articles.

http://www.paganbdsm.org/brokentoys/bpd_bottom.html
and
http://www.paganbdsm.org/brokentoys/bpd_submissive.html

Disclaimer: I kind of want to flip the author off when they start talking **** on self-injury and telling us to get therapy.

I'm active on Tumblr so I've started following you. I'm looking forward to the "bright-side" take on BPD. I'm in the process of de-stigmatizing myself. I knew of one person with BPD and she was really messed up. My dad got involved with her after my mother died. He was always dropping everything and coming to the rescue the moment the BPD woman called. I'm not even sure she had BPD, really, but some other sort of disorder, like DID. I never witnessed it myself, but other people explained how she'd just sort of zone out in the middle of an argument, people could see her eyes glaze over, and she'd act completely different after that. Long story short: I did not have a good first impression of BPD.

...Then, a few years ago, I was told that I had the symptoms of BPD. The symptoms only really show themselves acutely whenever I'm in a romantic relationship with someone or under a lot of stress. Day-to-day, I somehow just make it. Then, say, I fall in love (lust) with someone and I go nuts trying to get them to notice me and fall in love with me, too. Most recently, I did this with my mental health case manager (story on my Tumblr how that ended up.) I've been in denial all this time because, I thought, if I'm as "nuts" as that woman my dad kept saving, then I'm sub-human, not worth saving myself, I'll never have a full life, etc. I'm trying to come to accept my condition and learn more, especially if it's possible to get better somehow.

I agree that emotions are so deep, I'm grateful that I can be so deeply touched by the simplest of things. A beautiful sunset brings tears to my eyes. I cry at movies. Unfortunately, this is not very appropriate since I'm a man; society says men aren't supposed to cry.

Anyway, I'm hoping you'll keep up the Tumblr going for a while. It's good to know you're not alone in this. -K

I only trust men that cry anymore. The rest of them can hit the road. I think this is very interesting. I don't know if I would have wanted anyone taking a picture of my break down today...I'm going to read these articles...or maybe I shouldn't...I should probably just follow your blog is it? I like this take on it.