[jacpeaceandlove]

My life has been pretty up and down, I've been from overdose, to psychward, to college. Right now my life was going good. I have an amazing job that I have to leave so that I can go back to school which is three hours away. I've grown very attatched to that place and mostly a girl who is BPD like me, shes the first i actually meet in person.

I'm moving with my roomate who I'm madly in love with its been a little more than a year now. She has a boyfriend, who is also my bestfriend. I've never told her and probably never will.

So all this has been scaring the **** out of me and I've fallen into my old patterns. Self-mutilation, my bad drug habit and my negative thoughts.

I want to get out of this one Alive and im looking for advice. I'm hoping some of you will take the time to read this. I'm desperate for help

[Zabine]

I have been where you are. I have a difficult time keeping it together for sure. I cut myself 2 weeks ago, I felt so guilty. I wanted to do it again last week but I thought of how I felt last time and called a friend instead. You have to experience every feeling, good or bad. Just let yourself feel, don't try to fix it. The bad feelings will pass and there are ways to self soothe, you just have to find what is right for you.

[palemoss]

stop doing drugs. and stop cutting. why are you doing that to your body?
you dont have to make things awkward with your roommate, trust me you will meet alot of girls if you put yourself out there and have a positive outlook that life will good for you. right now, things dont have to be bad unless you think they will be. dont sabotage yourself

[jacpeaceandlove]

My body can take a lot its been through a lot and im treating it a lot nicer than i use to. I want to stop doing drugs and definitely stop cutting. I'm not going to make things awkward with my roomate it's just not going to be an easy task. I have put myself out there and I've met more girls but deep down I know its not my roomate and thats where things **** up. But thanks alot for the advice I'll try to stay strong and positive