Great day - think i need serious help

I want to rip my own eyes out. I'm furious, hurt and feeling absolutely crazy. I want to break mirrors and anything that shatters.

I may later be in a fit state to explain whats going on, but right now i just want to scream and the top of my lungs, i'm realy not well right now.

*hugs* it's ok.. we're here no matter what

Im so sorry honey - i hope your feeling better this morning? Remember we're all here for you sweetie

Sorry you feel bad. I am right there with you, feeling yucky.
I have tried the screaming before.
I found to be unsatisfying. It feels like you need to scream and to let out some of that intensity so a scream seems like the thing to do. But when you do it, you still have most of the intensity and a sore throat. At least that is what happens to me.

It sucks.

Maybe try hitting something that wont hurt? Like a pillow or something? Or break a drinking glass by throwing it on the floor. Just be careful not to hurt yourself.

So sorry you feel bad. What can I do to help?

I'm on such a rollercoaster right now.

I'm physicallly alone, in my spare time, its very odd for me, as i avoid this at any cost necessary,
last night i was watching facebook, my mum, stepdad and brothers were off round one of my mums new friends house for a night of fun, my friends were all going out, and i was hme alone. Because i live far away now because of work and i cant drive.

I was SO ANGRY with this woman who my mum has become friends with since i left home 3 weeks ago, i wanted to private message her to stay away from MY mum. but every bone of sense in my body stopped me. I would have been acting on emotion and not reason, even though every sane thought in my head tells me one thing, its hard to act on them not the emotions i feel .

So tonight i've been 'manic,' i'm used to seeing it as manic as have been previously dx'd as Bipolar, but now i know its now manic.

I felt an anxiety attack coming on today on my way home from work, i was imaging stabbing pains all over my body and couldnt cope in the super market, had to run away.

But while at work, i'm over achieving, confident and able, well for th past 3 days i have been, before that i was a tired depressed mess.

I cant say a statement about how i feel without another statement coming straight after contradicting it.

I love myself, i hate myself, i'm clever, i'm stupid, i'm lonely, i dont need ANYONE and so on and so on.