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.....if my mind is amazing....then why do I 'feel' so stupid? Can I even 'feel' stupid?...is 'stupid' a feeling, or is it a thing?
I even feel kinda stupid asking what appear to be stupid questions!

sumthing or dumthing?

wow!...check me out...putting myself down...YAY!!
...like as if thats a good idea!

but....there is a breakthrough...(beyond speculation)
I don't actually 'think' I am stupid, I can sort of tell from inside my skull here where all the mechanisms are spinning in some bizarre chaotic harmony.....sometimes....but good enough.
when I do my schoolwork I can rip out some terrific stuff!, takes ages but it happens. Someone comes to me with a problem?....I can often help them 'nut it out'...solve it maybe...even!

I can even produce a look on my face that proves I am deep in analytical thought...and hold it there!..the part of my brain that survived the assault of real nasty drugs, it still functions better than average.

but......give me an emotional event, like I had one today, and trying to navigate it with this same brain, it just hurts so much and I end up 'feeling' stupid....I hardly even know what words to use now?
...and regardless of the outcome of the event...there are so many confusing factors bunching up...it's mentally blitzing with all the feelings associated with all the factors and what this and that means or might means and the implications and the fallout!....oh christ and everything!...crap.

the bloody day seems like about 3 flippin' years long!

I said way back somewhere in my life....might have been 4 minutes ago?...I feel like I am nearly 900 years old!

A complicated old man...with a big heart...a stupid dis-order...living in a weird world.
what a HOOT!!

love all,
monkey

[Nixi]

I know exactly what you mean!! I think feeling stupid is an emotion!! It is so frustrating that it doesn't matter how intellectual we are we suffer so much with our emotions because we feel things so much more intensely than other people!

We are constantly fighting with our 'emotional mind' against our 'logical mind'!! Trying to activate our 'wise mind'- Gosh it's no wonder everything is sooo confusing!!

Hugz to you my friend

[ChaoticSymphony]

We may not be able to always look outside the box but we do look so deeply inside the box that we are genius. I mean who can twist and turn a simple statement into a 1001 meanings and confuse even the person saying the statement?? Now that is talent lmao. We are genius

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

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Ha i think us borderlines could probably make an industry out of obscurity

Don't believe be we've met? nice to meet you, im bb

Originally Posted by bb2023

Ha i think us borderlines could probably make an industry out of obscurity

Don't believe be we've met? nice to meet you, im bb

yes very cool!...

....and hello there bb, I believe the meeting is now complete..

I'm dm....or J...or just that weirdo guy?

[amaviena]

You're a wizard, Harry.

When my day seems like 3 years, I sleep through it.

[Korana]

If you were 'stupid' I wouldn't be posting a response

It's your self-esteem issues that 'tell' you these negative things. View them as bullies, and choose to believe the complete opposite of what they say.
I have to, or else I'd believe I was too fat and ugly to leave my house. Instead of sticking on some beautiful boots and skinny jeans and prancing down the street.

I know this is is short of a cliche, but more often than not, your biggest obstacle is you.
Believe in your mind. You seem sound, if not slightly erratic and whimsical. All wonderful things.

[MrGrendel]

no whayyy. being smart does not exempt yoo from feeling some really nasty things . you is not stoopid! its da mood of you hitting you in the head making joo feel da bad tings !

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

yes very cool!...

....and hello there bb, I believe the meeting is now complete..

I'm dm....or J...or just that weirdo guy?

The pleasure and privilege is all mine Monsieur Monkey Man!

*ps - would just like to add that i don't find you a weirdo - to the contrary in fact. You seem to be one of the nicer, more regular, insightful people on here. Not to blow smoke up your backside or anything ^^

Originally Posted by bb2023

The pleasure and privilege is all mine Monsieur Monkey Man!

*ps - would just like to add that i don't find you a weirdo - to the contrary in fact. You seem to be one of the nicer, more regular, insightful people on here. Not to blow smoke up your backside or anything ^^

lol....too late there bb, I was forced to bash the fire alarm off my ceiling!

there was smoke my friend.....there was smoke

(afterthought: I really need to get better at saying thankyou.....it seems I always go for the humour when confronted with a compliment, so...thanks bb)

I like the new quirky picture....I expect ol' Darth there will have trouble finding new members for the dark side on that thing! "join the dark side?....."ummm nah mate...it's ok....thanks anyway" hehe

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

lol....too late there bb, I was forced to bash the fire alarm off my ceiling!

there was smoke my friend.....there was smoke

Yours has batteries in it? I took mine out to put in the remote...

"To be idle is a short road to death and to be diligent is a way of life; foolish people are idle, wise people are diligent." <-- Buddha was clearly thinking of me when he said this

Originally Posted by bb2023

Yours has batteries in it? I took mine out to put in the remote...

"To be idle is a short road to death and to be diligent is a way of life; foolish people are idle, wise people are diligent." <-- Buddha was clearly thinking of me when he said this

....ah....so thats why my remote's not working?

well bb...I guess at least you get to watch tv while the house is burnin

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

....ah....so thats why my remote's not working?

well bb...I guess at least you get to watch tv while the house is burnin

Oh yeah...why run out of a house when the TV's working?

Nah i think i'd hopfoot it outta there...last time i eventually got my remote working i ended up loosing it. I was then stuck watching Porkie's for the best part of an evening. Fire or no fire, i don't want to risk that happening again...

[summeryoga]

J, I feel a little like a jerk for not having known about your rough day till now.
I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you, that I missed this thread until now, that I've been MIA these last few days. I'm just really sorry. PM coming now. Hugs to you, my sweetest friend.