[Stormy Seas]

Just started DBT , I feel so uncomfortable with this.First time in DBT.
My Pdocc wants me to start feeling and observing thoughts ,behaviors,emotions, environment, and physical sensations .
This is so hard for me because I tend block out every emotion possible (except negative ones) .when I can, I hate feeling , I dissasociate so much of the time , I just go thru the motions when ever I can .
Now he wants me to start feeling .UGH
I don't feel real most of the time.
Sometimes I feel like this is a world I want no part of and now he wants me to start becoming more aware of it .
Any one else struggle with DBT ?
I do know this is a good thing , I'm just afraid of all these emotions .
When I'm in DBT , I'm so uncomfortable and can't wait to get out of there, All I can think at the time is I don't want to deal with this .Grrr

There is a book/CD out by a guy named Jon Kabat-Zinn on mindfullness meditation. He is a forefather of DBT. He started a clinic in Boston primarily for people with terminal or pervasive illness aggrevated or caused by stress or severe stress-related issues. It was so successful that he was asked to write a book, the first bookbeing Mindfulness Meditation. I was introduced to him through a BPD book prior to knowing anything about DBT. I would highly recommend going through it and practicing it for a month or two prior to getting involved in DBT (I know you're already involved). I found it highly useful. When I first started it, I disassociated all the time. I was already having problems with disassociating, and the practices taught me how to do it at will! The more I practiced some of the medications and mindfullness exercises, however, the more I focused and I actually started getting it! I started the Yahoo DBT a few months later and have been at least somewhat successful. I would highly recommend it to anyone who wants to be successful in DBT. I'd recommend getting the book first to see if it's worthwhile and if you seem to be getting something from it, get the CD's. I was able to get both of them on EBay.

[Stormy Seas]

Thank you Carmasia ,
I will look into reading that book

Go through all the little exercises starting from the very beginning of the book. If you have any questions on how I dealt with anything with it, let me know. There is one thing that is greatly recommended in the book called something like a "body check". I bought the CD just so I could have guidance to do it. Never could...can't now. It requires you to lie completely still for 45 minutes.....yea, right. There's a lot of shorter exercises in it, however, that you can start slowly and do several times a day as you get comfortable with it. I found it very useful and I think the DBT training will be much easier after you do it for a while.

[i'm trying]

Hi, i was the same when i started DBT , emotional rollercoaster, it gets a bit much at times but i can say that i am looking forward to going 2morrow to my meeting. I have come so far with this program, please stick it out, it WILL get easier. My motto is " When i really don't feel like going then THAT's A SIGN TO GO, just take it slowly and be cool
good luck