Don't think this part of the forum has one.

Think it will be a good idea to have one

Right now I have a bad toothache and can't sleep.

[cali818]

Originally Posted by Tinkerbell..

Don't think this part of the forum has one.

Think it will be a good idea to have one

Right now I have a bad toothache and can't sleep.

i like this idea

right now i am at work and stressing over something i should have learned my lesson from yesterday and obsessing about having a cigarette even though i quit a month ago but if i cave in and have one then i'm weak!

i hope your toothache gets better is that why you can't sleep?

[msjanalyn]

Great idea! My day was alright - I'm crossing my fingers it will continue. Thanks Tinkekrbell for thinking of this!

I am so tired, I have been awake almost 48 hours and I am in need of sleep.

[msjanalyn]

Originally Posted by Tinkerbell..

I am so tired, I have been awake almost 48 hours and I am in need of sleep.

Oh, Tinkerbell - you need to sleep. Being overtired is the worst and 48 hrs is getting dangerous. I wish there was something I could do to help you.

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My check-in:

Today, December 4, 2012 I am having a really good day. See my therapist at 4 - things will get heavy because the crap I pulled last week but you know what? It's ok. So, for now I'm good -10mn from now the sky could fall but I'm here now.

Third good day in a row with a few downs but no major issues. Getting scared that the crash is coming soon!

[greyclouds]

Feeling good today, feel mood is on a rise. Hopefully for a few days. I have butterfly's in my tummy so I not feeling empty woo hoo

Tinks I hope you manage to get some sleep tonight, will be thinking of you as always ((hugs))

[cali818]

having a good day today trying to stay positive and hope this feeling lasts. im kicking any forming negative thoughts in the butt before they start. so far so good.

im really glad to hear most of you are having a good day so far too

[Girl_Interrupted]

Today I have been let down by a costume commissioner and I now have a breadcrumb in my eye.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Originally Posted by Tinkerbell..

Don't think this part of the forum has one.

Think it will be a good idea to have one

Right now I have a bad toothache and can't sleep.

I'm going to have to go to the dentist again. One of my teeth is acting up again. This can really mess up sleep, I know. And cause terrible anxiety.

Carol

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I am having terrible anxiety.

I got overwhelmed.

Made an appt with a new dentist cause I might have a new cavity in a tooth.

Went to my new pdoc who wants to try me on Seroquel XR, but I told him I am scared of Seroquel cause of breathing and swallowing problems associated with it and I do not want to be asleep all day long.

My new AA meeting (I go to AA and apply bpd to the 12 steps) is working out much better than the others did last summer.

My roommate still cannot find work; we are okay thru the New year, but not after. I have never been homeless before. I am so scared.

Santa, please bring him a job or bring us strength to be out in the cold after January.

I hope my tooth does not require root canal work.

I am working hard on love addiction issues now.

I am hurt that my medical doc never called me back.

Hurt that my uncle let me down and Bruce (roommate) never asked him if he was going to take care of me even though I asked him that 3 times already.

i needed this checkin. I was not sure what to share on a new thread.

I tried to renew my discount for my phone and that gd ULTS site is not userfriendly. G8d I am sick of relying on computer programs that do not understand humans.

I am scared most of all of recovering from my bpd, believe it or not.

Carol

I've had a few strong triggers (family related) this morning that are seriously threatening to ruin my four day good mood streak. Sigh...was bound to happen I guess. Hopefully it's just a dip and I'll recuperate and not turn in to a crash.

[greyclouds]

Originally Posted by Maranara

I've had a few strong triggers (family related) this morning that are seriously threatening to ruin my four day good mood streak. Sigh...was bound to happen I guess. Hopefully it's just a dip and I'll recuperate and not turn in to a crash.

Keep being strong, you can do this. ((Hugs))

So much anxiety Grrrrrr.

[ruby.lestrange]

I like this idea! It's nice to know how everyone is doing.


I'm doing alright, had a few bad days in a row (many thanks to Mara for the support!!) and a pretty rough morning, but feel like maybe I cried it out and am feeling calmer. Called an old friend today, which was nice. Curled up with my cat and enjoying a movie now

I was triggered the other night and although i don't regret my response, it was definitely my emotionally charged state that caused me to do this.

I won't get into the details but my 20 yr old daughter was pregnant. She was considering abortion at the time and while I'd always respect whatever decision she made I wanted her to be sure of her decision before doing so. My sister had one many years ago and I thought maybe she would be a good person to give some perspective on it.

Well very quickly a little background too. I don't talk to my family normally because I already know I'm an outcast and they don't give a rat's butt about my life but i thought this was a significant enough reason to talk to her. I'm disappointed in her reply although I am not one bit surprised.

She said literally "I'll talk to [my daughter], but please refrain from sharing any of my life with anyone without my permission in the future" Of course this is not just anyone, but my daughter, her neice. She probably already knew about this before I even said anything to her. The arrogance just totally blew me away. no "what's going on? How is she? " or any inkling of concern about my child, only concern for her own face and possible blemish on her, albeit fake, pristine image.

I responded and ended it like this:
"Well I'd say sorry but I'm more offended than anything. Thought maybe this was the case when it would be important enough that you'd put your own [expletive]ing pride aside. Don't worry you'll never hear from me again. Don't bother emailing back, you won't get another reply.

Your (former) brother"

Extreme? on the surface yes but I was fuming. If you looked deeper at what I'd been through with my family you'd know this was just the straw that broke the camel's back. Dealing with fake people has been the cause of many of my problems so this was just the last time.

Sorry I ranted so long.

Originally Posted by s4ndm4n2006

I was triggered the other night and although i don't regret my response, it was definitely my emotionally charged state that caused me to do this.

I won't get into the details but my 20 yr old daughter was pregnant. She was considering abortion at the time and while I'd always respect whatever decision she made I wanted her to be sure of her decision before doing so. My sister had one many years ago and I thought maybe she would be a good person to give some perspective on it.

Well very quickly a little background too. I don't talk to my family normally because I already know I'm an outcast and they don't give a rat's butt about my life but i thought this was a significant enough reason to talk to her. I'm disappointed in her reply although I am not one bit surprised.

She said literally "I'll talk to [my daughter], but please refrain from sharing any of my life with anyone without my permission in the future" Of course this is not just anyone, but my daughter, her neice. She probably already knew about this before I even said anything to her. The arrogance just totally blew me away. no "what's going on? How is she? " or any inkling of concern about my child, only concern for her own face and possible blemish on her, albeit fake, pristine image.

I responded and ended it like this:
"Well I'd say sorry but I'm more offended than anything. Thought maybe this was the case when it would be important enough that you'd put your own [expletive]ing pride aside. Don't worry you'll never hear from me again. Don't bother emailing back, you won't get another reply.

Your (former) brother"

Extreme? on the surface yes but I was fuming. If you looked deeper at what I'd been through with my family you'd know this was just the straw that broke the camel's back. Dealing with fake people has been the cause of many of my problems so this was just the last time.

Sorry I ranted so long.

Hate to say it, but it sounds kinda familiar. Family...too many problems...too much pain... Not worth it. Thanks for sharing. You're not alone, at all.

[cali818]

had a good day yesterday. i can feel anxiety creeping in slowly today for no reason and i'm feeling restless. now i'm scared if i can't stop the feelings, it's going to ruin the rest of my day.

[fletch33]

Right now it is about 11:30 AM and I am contemplating the therapist appointment I had yesterday. We covered a lot of important material.

[gabmux]

BPD

[fletch33]

Originally Posted by gabmux

BPD

Amen!!!!

Originally Posted by Maranara

Hate to say it, but it sounds kinda familiar. Family...too many problems...too much pain... Not worth it. Thanks for sharing. You're not alone, at all.

Thanks hun!

Feel abandoned and yet I want peace does that make sense?
Also I have to talk to the police tomorrow but at least my T will be there to support me.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Feel like I'm on that nonstop speedy freight train again.

LET>>>ME>>>OFF>>>!!! LOL

Carol

Ka----boom!!