BPD related songs

I can't believe I forgot Breaking Benjamin's "Unknown Soldier"!
Border line, dead inside
I don't mind, falling to pieces
Count me in, violent
Let's begin, feeding the sickness
How do I, simplify
Dislocate
The anger is on the way!

Show me what it's like
To dream in black and white
So I can leave this world behind!

Full of fear, ever clear
I'll be here, fighting forever
Curious, venomous
You'll find me, climbing to heaven
Never mind, turn back time
You'll be fine, I will get left behind!

never listened to breaking benjamin but this line rings true...

There are two versions of "Where Will You Go" by Evanescence. In the one I'm thinking of, the second verse goes:

However did you manage to push away
from every living thing you came across
So afraid that anyone would hate you
You pretend you hate them first

I'm going to go with Lana Del Rey's 10 minute video of "Ride".
The feelings she expresses in the spoken word lyrics at the beginning are so familiar to me.



"I was always an unusual girl.
My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean..."

Editing to add the chorus lyrics, because I meant to but posted too early :

"'I'm trying hard not to get into trouble
But I've got a war in my mind"

This feels related right now

by barr brothers

I will not stand nor utter words against this tide of hate
Losing sight of what and who I was again
I'm so sorry if these seething words I say
Impress on you that I've become anathema of my soul



love has no face
we're face to face
with mirrors
I stare at myself
in your eyes



I'm not always like this, it's something I've become
A terrible weakness, in my nature, in my blood
Save me, oh save me,
Save me from myself
Before I hurt somebody else again

"My Immortal" by Evanescence

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

i thought the suits had come for me.
found alternatives to honesty.
body and soul were bought and sold.
patented and out of reach, so i reach but it hurts, it kills, it screams and it fills my heart with chills and i take my pills but i’m still tired of sleeping with the light on. but if it keeps the hair out of my eyes, pack it up.
send it home. for just one stab at the good life, that’s enough and i’m sold.
so i gave up all my wretched thoughts.
left them out for the less fortunate.
now at the gate i’ll skip the queue, life’s not living ‘less you’re sure to make it through but now it hurts, it kills, it screams and it fills my heart with chills and i take my pills but i’m still tired of sleeping with the light on.
but if it keeps the hair out of my eyes, pack it up. send it home.
for just one stab at the good life, that’s enough and i’m sold.
lord, i’m sold. go on pack me up, i’m sold.
go on pack me up, i’m sold.
and if it keeps the hair out of my eyes, pack it up.
send it home.
for just one stab at the good life, that’s enough and i’m sold.

I know it's about addiction, and I'm not an addict, but The A Team by Ed Sheeran reminds me of me for some reason. Such a sad-sweet melancholy song. It could be just the video that reminds me--the girl all alone crying in the cold. Been there...

In my nothing
You meant everything, everything to me

Why can't you see that everything's broken?
Why can't you see that my life's turned grey?
I can't believe in anything sacred
When I don't believe that I am real
I need someone to break the silence
Screaming in my head and in my soul



I only see myself reflected in your eyes
So all that I believe I am essentially are lies
And everything I've hoped to be or ever thought I was
Died with your belief in me, so who the hell am I?

I don't know if I am real without you
What is left of me without you?
I don't know what's real without you
How can I exist without you?

(That was one of my favorite songs as a teenager... Somehow missed the glaring red flag, there.)

Well, here are some songs that came to mind for me. Most of them are kind of old, like from the 1970's, 1980's, 1990's--and some of them I don't remember the artists' names.

okay, here goes:

"Janey Got A Gun" (aerosmith)
"Burning Down the House" (I think by talking heads)
"One Thing Leads to Another" (???)
"Promises, Promises" (?????)
"That's All" (Phil Collins/Genesis)
"Do You Really Wanna Hurt me?" and "Karma Chameleon" (boy george and the culture club)
"Bad Romance" (Lady Gaga)
"These Dreams" (???)
"50 Ways to Say Goodbye" (train)
"50 Ways to Leave Your Lover" (paul simon)
"Maneater" (hall & oates)
"Somebody That I Used to Know" (gotye)

H.A.T.E
I am my own worst enemy

(Posting in this thread a lot.. Music is my panacea to distract myself from self-violence and is why I very rarely self-injure.)

I think his singing about a girl with BPD

Made me giggle at little, never heard it that way before

I thought this the moment I heard it.
Hi ho, here she goes a little to high or a little low.
No self esteem. and vertigo with a hurricane in the back of her throat!!

That BPD if ever I heard it.

Sober

//armor for sleep

I love the way you lie

Isn't it just.. Never really liked this done before, has a whole new meaning now

Here's another one where he seems to be singing about a girl with bpd: In Black and White, by Sonata Arctica.

oh my goodness you guys.

okay so, i was on my way home and this song came on. about a two years ago when i started dbt (before my diagnosis, i was there for ptsd not bpd) i heard this song. it's a song i love, but it resonated with me at that moment. i thought "this is relevant, and i'm not sure how, but it feels good."

so it comes on tonight, and it hits me. this is my bpd song.

enjoy!



I'm becoming less defined as days go by
Fading away
And well you might say
I'm losing focus
Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself

Sometimes I think I can see right through myself [x2]
Sometimes I can see right through myself

Less concerned about fitting into the world
Your world that is
Cause it doesn't really matter anymore
(no it doesn't really matter anymore)
No it doesn't really matter anymore
None of this really matters anymore

Yes I am alone but then again I always was
As far back as I can tell
I think maybe it's because
Because you were never really real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself

I just made you up to hurt myself, yeah
And I just made you up to hurt myself

And it worked.
Yes it did!

There is no you
There is only me
There is no you
There is only me
There is no ****ing you
There is only me
There is no ****ing you
There is only me

Well the tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be a scab
And I had this funny feeling like I just knew it's something bad
I just couldn't leave it alone, I kept picking at the scab
It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut
But I climbed through

Now I am somewhere I am not supposed to be, and I can see things I know I really shouldn't see
And now I know why, now, now, now I know why
Things aren't as pretty
On the inside

I just listened to this song, erm yeah def a BPD song.

How we make things better in head to hurt ourselves. Really got me.
I do that a lot.
Thanks for sharing this