Antisocial norms.

Lately I've been feeling antisocial with everyone, because usually I end up getting aggressive and or sad. You too?

Yes! Or I find myself saying things that are just thoughts tumbling out of my mouth - ones that I probably shouldn't share. I'm sure people think I'm absolutely bonkers.

Anti-social is normal for me. When I am forced to spend time with my family, I always feel angry and/or sad when I leave. Angry because they provide NO support and sad, because they don't know me.

Yep, primarily because I want to be with people and then when I make the effort I get disappointed because it wasn't worth it...

That is my life.

I don't feel antisocial. I just don't want to be around people. >.< Wait what?

Yeah me too, I never have been the one for socializing or when I do I want to get away quick.

Remember that feelings aren't facts. They also pass. I've learned that if I can somehow not act on those emotions when they come and just let them go by then I don't end up in a mess or in regret. Us Borderlines feel things too deeply and have worn a mask so long in order just to survive. We're so sensitive. Or I am. I'll speak for myself.
Sometimes just being around family is best. There's nothing wrong with that. I only have three real friends and I'm okay with it. They're the ride or die kind. I'm the same way. Us Borderlines can be hurtful but we need not crawl before anyone.
I have faith you guys will come out the other side one day at a time.

YES! Yes yes yes this this this this is sooooooo me. BUT I've made the decision to keep trying because I can't keep holing up in my house all alone with only my two cats to keep me company. I truly am a crazy cat lady if I do that. That, and the two close friends I have cannot keep shouldering all of my social life. I need to take responsibility for myself and get out there. It takes practice; eventually it will start to feel more normal and "worth it." I keep telling myself that, at least.

I know Misskeena...we have to hope and move on, I am sure that among 7 billion people on this planet we will manage to find one friend that will accept us and understand us and entirely enjoy who we are...hope and will is what we need...

I have mixed feelings about it. Half the time I hate people and I don't know why they are so freaking stupid and the other half Im pleading for their approval, I guess I don't understand why I try so hard sometimes, because I really do hate people. They suck. They disappoint you and they never understand you even if you have a completely logical explanation for how you feel..

What's wrong with being alone with the cats? They're such great company!

This is very true. They're keeping me company right now while I sit here watching Rachael Ray and surfing around on PC.

It's my fear.

I don't like feeling so exposed and vulnerable.

Carol

Agreed Carol, it puts me in a BAD position.

Definitely. I only really talk to one person right now.

I like it when I run the dishwasher at work. No one can hear me ranting to myself. I don't exactly hate people but they make me frantic sometimes.