[Landoflimbo]

I want to be able to write and say how i feel right now, but i can't because i just don't know. It seems that my mood this morning was short lived.. I was, Erm, normal, if ever that's the right word to use.
But my mind has been racing with all sorts of thoughts, and my brain on auto pilot.
Since realising that I'm suffering with BPD I've felt more alone than ever, or at least it feels like that right now.

I'm very limited to who i feel i can trust and talk to about it and even those i thought i could dont seem to be there at all.

I'm also worried that because I've not been professionally diagnosed that I'm maybe a bit mad, and that its all in my head.
I don't really want to come on here and be someone that just moans but i have nowhere else to turn right now

Massive sigh

[pegasus]

Hello Landoflimbo, how are you feeling now? Hugs

When I first started here last July, I was self-diagnosed with BPD but still in denial even though the traits were staring me right in the face. From expressing my problems here and talking to people, I was able to relate and fess up about it in my own head. I wasn't diagnosed until January and I was right on the mark

A lot of us don't have anyone in real life to talk to; that's why we're here. You're fine. Express and vent away, but keep in mind that others are having the same problems so on your good days, hours, whatever, try to offer support to those who aren't. No rules, no pressures, and welcome.

[AngelWolf3]

Originally Posted by Landoflimbo

I'm also worried that because I've not been professionally diagnosed that I'm maybe a bit mad, and that its all in my head.
Massive sigh

I completely can relate to that sentence right there! But no, you are not mad. I was advised recently by someone not to give in to that particular 'stigma' of BPD, and it's true. You deserve to be able to get it out here, that is what this forum is for, and it is very supportive too.

Welcome to PC....

[greyclouds]

Sometimes once you start writing about feeling empty other things start to come to light,
Sometimes what we write seems to make no sense at all. But someone in here will sure know what you mean.

Because they to have felt exactly the same way.

And most of us were self diagnosed before it was official. Your not alone there. And it is scary. The unknown!!

Maybe once you know, it will help you understand this better and you can start taking the steps to helping yourself get better.

[Landoflimbo]

Originally Posted by pegasus

Hello Landoflimbo, how are you feeling now? Hugs

I'm not in a good place right now.. I feel very alone, and I'm worried I'm going to feel like this always.
I'm not having a good day at all, i was supposed to sit an exam this afternoon and literally walked in sat down and walked straight back out again.. My head was not there, not even a bit. I left and drove around.
I just want to feel nothing right now, all these emotions are too much to deal with. I want to just drink wine and go to sleep. It's such a mess

Originally Posted by Landoflimbo

I just want to feel nothing right now, all these emotions are too much to deal with. I want to just drink wine and go to sleep. It's such a mess

I'm sorry you feel this way... It'd be so much better to just feel nothing, I agree. And I can definitely relate. Hope things get better for you soon.