[borncatastrophe77]

Just joined this forum yesterday, feels great to b able to interact w/people who understand what i go through. Great to b around people who understand how i feel w/o telling me that i love playing the victim role. Etc..etc...etc.... self harmed two days ago, was in a major slump, but I'm coming around.....hopefully. need help, hope i find it.

[Contrabanned]

Feeling so numb atm. How do any of you deal with that? It feels worse than the downs. At least I know how to deal with anger or sadness, but emptiness baffles me.

[BarelyMakingIt]

Just sitting and thinking today. I had so much that I wanted to do but I don't feel connected to anything. I don't have any interests anymore and I don't have any desire to take care of my home which I used to value doing. I don't even know how to think anymore. I'm just here.

[shezbut]

feeling insignificant to everyone

[youwillrise]

guess hes not talking to me. ((shrug)) psrt of me says that hes just busy doing aome type of training for his army blahness...a bigger part of me says he's just not effing talking to me. i hate being so attached to this guy. im NOTHING to him. absolutely nothing. eff me and my idiocy.

[aleej28]

I passed out valentines suckers to the 2nd graders in the class I'm student teaching in during recess. When they all came back and saw them, I got attacked with hugs. Some of those kids have never even spoken to me yet so it felt good. Besides that I've laid in bed all day with my cats while my son is visiting his gramma. I hate the coming down part of my medication

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[technigal]

Two super busy days in a row have me burnt out. Glad that tomorrow is a quiet day, I need the rest!

[beloiseau]

Trying not to be an emotional roller coaster as it is my last day in my dbt iop, it's valentine's day and i'm single, my cat is sick, and i'm going to my parents for dinner.

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I've had such a bad headache all week and only lasted one full day at work on Monday. I thought today I might but it's got to lunchtime and my head is pounding...time to go home again I think...

[technigal]

making a heart-shaped cake for my men. Little man like his Valentine's gifts (3 books and 2 kinder surprise eggs), big man has not received his gift yet. Today is the start of our 14th year as a couple, there are times that I did not think we would make it this far.

[lynn808]

am trying....trying...to make it through today!!!!!
hugs to all of you!!!

[shezbut]

My day went okay.

I decorated at bit, for my daughters. A 6ft vine of small shimmery hearts along the dining room/living room; some white paper hearts for place mats at the table; a word search tablet & card for each of the two.... It worked pretty well. Like my parents used to say, "It's better than nothing!" LOL! It did look a lot more festive than ever before on 2/14 in my apartment.

My bf also bought some roses for us, which are in a vase on the table as well. {I then gave him a Soduko booklet and a small box of chocolates.}

My older daughter is going to be participating in a youth talent show tomorrow, and I'm feeling a bit anxious about it, as I don't know how she will react to the environment. Personally, I'd hate it (but, that's me)! It could be a good experience for her. We don't know if we don't try ~ and this is something that she wants to do, so.... we shall see. I am hoping that it goes well and she enjoys herself.

[BarelyMakingIt]

I am having a hard time keeping with no contact with the guy that I had been seeing. It's going on a month since I've heard from him. I apologized for my confusing and inappropriate behavior but somehow I think that my apology made things worse (why wouldn't I think that lol). I'm pretty sure that I'll never hear from him again and I just can't have that, I still want to send him little messages, just something to remind him of who the person is that he liked from the beginning. I wish it was easier to forget about him, some days I want to and some days I miss him so bad that it hurts.

Well yesterday I made red velvet pancakes for my two little Valentine's for breakfast. They wanted burgers for dinner and I gave them both a box of chocolates. Of course my sweet little boy couldn't be outdone and he had to give me one of the chocolates that he got from his friends at school. I really believe that I have the two sweetest little kids in the world and I'm glad that they're so much stronger than me!

[technigal]

Originally Posted by BarelyMakingIt

Well yesterday I made red velvet pancakes for my two little Valentine's for breakfast. They wanted burgers for dinner and I gave them both a box of chocolates. Of course my sweet little boy couldn't be outdone and he had to give me one of the chocolates that he got from his friends at school. I really believe that I have the two sweetest little kids in the world and I'm glad that they're so much stronger than me!

That really is sweet. How old is he?

[Unrigged64072835]

Shezbut--good luck to your daughter on the talent show!

Kind of a rough day. Didn't get enough sleep, got spun up on finances, had daughter's boyfriend over. Tried to take a nap and laid in bed for four hours. Got up groggy and confused. Still trying to make dinner in this state.

[BarelyMakingIt]

Originally Posted by technigal

That really is sweet. How old is he?

He's 6 years old!

not happy

[Contrabanned]

Feeling really pissed off. I was in KFC having something to eat. When I'm finished I need a #2 so I go to the toilet. While I'm in there some kid comes in and is really ****ing impatient. He keeps knocking on the cubicle door. He bloody well knows someone is in there, and I start hurrying cos I'm too nice and I don't wanna keep them waiting. But after about 10 seconds I hear a trickling sound. He'd started PEEING ON THE DOOR. THE STUFF STARTED COMING INSIDE THE CUBICLE. HE ALMOST GOT IT ON MY EXPENSIVE SHOES I WAS WEARING. WHEN I GET OUT OF THE CUBICLE HE LOOKED AT ME AS IF I WAS IN THE WRONG. I wash my hands and get out of there asap before I do something ultra stupid. That has ruined my entire day. What sort of stupid ******le parents tell their kid that thats ok to do? Don't they teach them manners and patience anymore? Rant over. I was having a pretty regular, relaxed Sunday up until that.

[beloiseau]

Originally Posted by Contrabanned

Feeling really pissed off. I was in KFC having something to eat. When I'm finished I need a #2 so I go to the toilet. While I'm in there some kid comes in and is really ****ing impatient. He keeps knocking on the cubicle door. He bloody well knows someone is in there, and I start hurrying cos I'm too nice and I don't wanna keep them waiting. But after about 10 seconds I hear a trickling sound. He'd started PEEING ON THE DOOR. THE STUFF STARTED COMING INSIDE THE CUBICLE. HE ALMOST GOT IT ON MY EXPENSIVE SHOES I WAS WEARING. WHEN I GET OUT OF THE CUBICLE HE LOOKED AT ME AS IF I WAS IN THE WRONG. I wash my hands and get out of there asap before I do something ultra stupid. That has ruined my entire day. What sort of stupid ******le parents tell their kid that thats ok to do? Don't they teach them manners and patience anymore? Rant over. I was having a pretty regular, relaxed Sunday up until that.

OMG I would feel exactly the same way, except I don't know if I would have been able to keep my mouth shut. That is absolutely disgusting and there is NO WAY you were in the wrong.

[beloiseau]

Start my new job tomorrow morning....feeling the nerves start up! Still working on validating my experiences as real and not worthless. Non-judgmental and radical acceptance to the rescue. <3

[Bubbles&Buttercup]

My GP filled out my medical form for the disability, so I can hand that in and hopefully have money to live soon. Moving house in 5 days, need to pack and organise changing names on bills and such but I'm so unmotivated. I want to lay in bed watching tv and eating food. I feel the depression coming on.

[leomama]

My mother called me tonight and I'm trying not to feel hurt in regards to the reason for her call.

[snarkydaddy]

can't sleep...triggered
feeling disconnected and in pain at the same time,

[leomama]

Still feeling kind of discouraged, probably some residual from last night, dealing with my mom's fantasy about me in contrast of the reality of my life, and being reminded I never had an emotionally functional mother.

Anxious ! Worried ! Argh