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#926
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Thanks darling! Yeah, it really does seem that way. My boyfriends dog's pissed all over the couch and I KNOW they did it on purpose.
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Allie Diagnosed: Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Obsessive Compulsive Disoder. Previous: Borderline Personality Disorder. I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but there will always be my borderline traits that I struggle with especially during times of great stress. I've been working passionately as a therapist since December 2016
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#927
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Feeling like I'm moments away from bursting into a hysterical rage for no reason. I'm at the point that noises and smells and touches are over amplified and agitating my mind. A pin drop sounds like thunder. I need dark silence to hide in.
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#928
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I've been having trouble controlling the urges to hurt myself. I've also been having trouble pushing away the thoughts of suicide. I can't make them stop, but I had been getting better at ignoring them. But the past few days have been rough. Exhausting dreams, painful situations, stressful conversations. I really should not have any interaction with humans at all.
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#929
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Even though I am not serious, I wish soneone would just shoot me
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#930
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i think im having a nervous breakdown
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#931
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makes you want to say " you what, f*** it, i'm done. i'm going back to bed" i don't need this s*** today!LOL! hope it gets better for ya! ![]()
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper! ![]() ![]() |
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off to a bad start today,seems like i do good for a few days, then something stupid happens to trigger me then its right back to the same behaviors that got me in the mess i'm in now. why can't i control it or make it stop. i'm so frustrated and mad at myself again, it feels like i'm not making any progress.
it feels like i'm never going to get better ![]()
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper! ![]() ![]() |
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#933
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feeling much better today, i don't know why..i just do
could be cause the sun is shining, i always feel better when it does ![]()
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper! ![]() ![]() |
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I've been tentatively diagnosed by Mood Disorder NOS or the episodes are being caused by PTSD after extreme stress/anxiety caused by work...don't know which. Without an exact diagnosis, public health won't work with me, so I'm searching yet again for someone who will, and this is my opinion but I will stick with it: Obamacare is generally a bunch of crap. Before the Affordable Care Act, we always had employee based insurance that may have been a bit overpriced but the benefits were good and would always take care of our needs with reasonable copays and minimum deductables. For the past two years, we are paying out of the *** for insurance. Last year, it capped us at $1500 outpatient expenses total, for everything, for the year, and this year, we have a wonderful deductable of $2500 before they cover anything. I'm tired of being screwed. If this offends anyone or gets flagged and removed, so be it. I'm tired of making too much money to get decent health care and just generally being screwed. I've been fighting to get regular MH services for almost 2 years, and it's never going to happen unless I lose my job or apply for disability, and that is unfair.
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#935
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trying to stay focused..
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#936
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Trying to fight the never ending waves of depression.
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Allie Diagnosed: Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Obsessive Compulsive Disoder. Previous: Borderline Personality Disorder. I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but there will always be my borderline traits that I struggle with especially during times of great stress. I've been working passionately as a therapist since December 2016
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#937
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I feel lost in uncertainty.
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#938
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Wish that I could sleep, My mind won't switch off.
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#939
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I'm definitely up and down with my emotions this week :/ pinging around from positive to depressed to confident to anxious to hopeful to angry etc wow! I need a duvet day!!
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Sorry your feeling so bad ![]() Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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my mood seems to be going up and down and all over the place the last few days, wish i could get it to stabilize
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I have learned that i and i alone am responsible for my happiness, most people these days are as reliable as wet toilet paper! ![]() ![]() |
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#942
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I've had a fairly good day. I'm looking forward to when the baby will be in bed so I can just sit around and watch TV.
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#943
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Medicated, saw my T today, solid and not scattered. In a good mood and attached to my partner even though we have not had much contact today
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#944
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I have spent this day, catching up on laundry, and took the dog to the dog park for some social interaction (safe), so mood is stable at the moment.
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#945
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Every time I hang out with this guy the next day he texts me saying how uncomfortable I seemed when I wasn't uncomfortable at all. I can't ever do anything right.
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#946
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Trigger warning?
I'm struggling. Bad. I had a few drinks (not even buzzed though...stupid tolerance level) and have some...tools you could call them stashed away in case my mind takes complete control. Its been almost 5 months since my last relapse and I needed stitches last time... Also debating taking the last of my pain medication from my surgery. I can't think of the name of it, but its similar to oxy and it helps me escape my mind. I hate me. I hate everything I stand for and do. I can't do anything right and just want it all to go away.
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Life's so dark when every day is a struggle
Why go out and see the world on fire Don't let your mindset become what controls you Speak right now and make the choice to grow |
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#947
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Depressed. I am just fet up with the way I look. There's nothing positive about my face. My nose is too big, in have indented acne scars, my face is crooked. I just want to be normal looking. I am filled with so much self hatred that I cannot stop crying and I feel an overwhelming sense of doom.
I know it's vain, but it's caused me a lot of pain through the years.. Lots of isolation and anger. I also keep having random thoughts of the rape that happened in october. I'm pissed yet so unattached. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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#948
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Allie Diagnosed: Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Obsessive Compulsive Disoder. Previous: Borderline Personality Disorder. I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but there will always be my borderline traits that I struggle with especially during times of great stress. I've been working passionately as a therapist since December 2016
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#949
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getting irritated with the short comings of technology in a LDR
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#950
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Actually feeling pretty good after some retail therapy and much needed time with my BFF and boyfriend
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Allie Diagnosed: Generalized Anxiety Disorder & Obsessive Compulsive Disoder. Previous: Borderline Personality Disorder. I no longer qualify for a diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder, but there will always be my borderline traits that I struggle with especially during times of great stress. I've been working passionately as a therapist since December 2016
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