[Espresso]

Ugh, rough day. And the huge bowl of ice cream I ate didn't help.

Bad day.

[snarkydaddy]

Fighting the crazies this morning
It will be ok 🌞

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[technigal]

Ugh! Just when all the snow had just about melted we are getting hit with more snow. We are supposed to get about 2 cm so hopefully it stops soon. It is the first day of spring, we don't need to have more snow!

terrible day.

Fighting for hours via text/phone.

I begged and pleaded to be heard, to be understood, to be loved....it was so pathetic.
I give him way to much power.

Cried so much. Face is raw. Im a mess....again.

[Maranara]

Questioning Life, the Universe and Everything and whether anything is worth it anymore.

[shezbut]

Feeling like a Dr.Jekyll and Hyde case in my romantic world ~ while I stopped on the outside, I'm still going back and forth in my head. It's driving me crazy!!

[Maranara]

Last night. I had dinner with the only person where I live that I thought might be a friend, the only person I felt a connection with, and I did something I never do: I asked for help. I asked for a place to go if my mind tells me that I have to go or else, a place I could at least temporarily feel safe , and I was denied. I have no real life friends and only three family members who give a crap about me; two are clear across country and the third is someone who won't admit I need help and who I embarrass. I'm totally screwed.

Annoyed. Posted something in anxiety section n been blanked by 80 odd views

[Espresso]

My day was ok, but it seems that more and more, nothing is fulfilling. I'm going through the motions again. Everything is empty and pointless. And everyday I look forward to my time browsing this website because it's the only place where I can be honest about myself and my struggles.

[Faking sane]

Originally Posted by shezbut

Having a heck of a day... I think that I've cried a good quart full of tears. It has been horrible!

My ex-bf is wondering if I also have SAD ~ along with all of my other diagnoses, as I have a tendency to become like this every fall through winter, in his eyes. I don't know.

I went to go work out this afternoon, to hopefully get myself into a better frame of mind. I hit my head on the stone stairs and started to cry again!! I just want it to go away now.

Lack of sunlight really CAN put you in a funk. It's nice that your ex is helping you figure out your depression

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[Faking sane]

Originally Posted by Maranara

Last night. I had dinner with the only person where I live that I thought might be a friend, the only person I felt a connection with, and I did something I never do: I asked for help. I asked for a place to go if my mind tells me that I have to go or else, a place I could at least temporarily feel safe , and I was denied. I have no real life friends and only three family members who give a crap about me; two are clear across country and the third is someone who won't admit I need help and who I embarrass. I'm totally screwed.

Oh, Maranara! I'm very sorry that happened. I understand you're probably experiencing this as rejection, but so many things go into making a decision about "keeping" a friend. I don't know what your situation is, but I've been homeless a time or several, and I can tell you some reasons I've come up against: A household member won't allow it. The household can't support another person (food, transportation, etc.). You are at risk, and having you would put the household at risk (I experienced this a lot when being stalked by my ex). The change in relationship dynamic might not be good for the friendship.
Having THREE family members who care about you is bigger than you think, especially when there's physical distance and the efforts made to communicate. And the one you embarrass and won't admit you need help... That might be the one who could keep you the safest. I mean, without knowing what you need safety from...

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:'( arhhhhhhhh

[Blue_velvet09]

Got really drunk last night and said some things and acted in a certain way that is leaving me feel embarrassed.
I wish I didn't have this need to drink whenever I feel down... But the overwhelming need to fill that emptiness was so unbearable. Of course I tried to distract myself with vodka and unprotected sex, god I am so dumb.
I'm ****ed if I'm pregnant.

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[Withered-Rose79]

I cried for several hours this morning. Normal people might find this to be a negative thing, but for me it means I've left the fog and rejoined reality (even if for only a moment).

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I'm in love/like with someone who does not want me back. Always happens to me.

[shezbut]

I am trying very hard to be mindful. Trying to figure out exactly what I am feeling inside, as my emotions are confusing me very much!

[atomicc]

I feel sick to death from going off my meds. I'm happier mentally, I just have to get rid of these physical symptoms.
I'm also a little lonely :/

[Britneigh]

was doing really well for a while, like super...now i'm hitting that downward streak where **** will eventually hit the fan. weeeeeeeee

[ChaoticMess19]

I'm on the downward climb... I can feel it coming. Really bad thoughts and I'm so sad. Yesterday was a good day.. I should have bottled it up.

[sparkles1]

I feel a bit disconnected. Overall, I feel better than 2 weeks ago. Still not sure of future.

[Hong Kong Fluey]

I am going through a process of trying to find contentment in being single.

I am, in the most, failing

[technigal]

Hubby's birthday today. I posted it on facebook and he is pissed off at me for doing so. So now I feel like a bad wife. Just waiting for him to get home and so we can go out for dinner.

Strong urge to turn off my phone and not answer anyone's texts. It's easier not to have any friends; I'm used to being alone. It doesn't hurt as bad as having friends and always feeling not good enough and guilty and all those emotions.

Day flew by.

Stayed focused for the most part.

Monday is the new therapy day from now on. Kinda like starting the week off that way.

Hoping for better days. I need better days....
If things keep going downhill I fear that I will end up in the hospital.

I cant let that happen again.

Better days ahead. There will be better days ahead.