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May 01, 2014, 05:09 PM
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Whenever someone with BPD starts to talk about how they don't know who they are, they're terrified of being alone etc I get so incredibly triggered. I'll just start to cry and feel a huge urge to cut, get drunk/high and start threatening people with suicide again so that someone HAS to care. WHY did I watch a documentary about BPD?! Dumbest thing I've ever done... am I TRYING to trigger myself because I've been feeling at ease for a while now? I want to ****ing die but I also want someone to hold me but if anyone'd try to touch me right now I'd probably just push them away and yell at them. Because I don't deserve love. Someday everyone who loves me will realize this, if they haven't already. What if they've decided to leave already? Why am I doing this right now? Why can't I just get over myself? Omg I'm so off topic now... uhm... does anyone else get ****ing triggered by hearing other borderlines talking about BPD?
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May 01, 2014, 06:02 PM
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  , haven't heard from you in a while. sorry to hear you are so upset though so to answer your question, i don't get triggered at all actually quite the opposite..i have to talk to my fellow borderlines cause "normal" people suck and can't understand us! and if i don't talk to people that get it and hear there stories and tell mine i just sit here in a pool of self sorrow brooding over one of the past relationships that went south. by talking about it i feel better, the more i talk about it the better i feel. i don't know if i'm stable enough to watch a documentary on BPD ( i doubt i could handle that!) but i'm quite at home here on the forum with all you wonderful people that i love so much  you did it because that's what we always do!!!! things are going good so we expect the bottom to fall out & because we expect that it always does! we gotta "f" it up, wish we didn't but do ( i gotta work on that!) i'll send you a hug!  ok make it 2!! hang in there, these episodes suck don't they!
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May 02, 2014, 09:27 AM
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It depends what they are talking about, I think at the moment I'm more triggered by people talking about past abuse but it depends what I'm feeling vulnerable about as to what triggers me.
Sometimes I find it helpful to educate myself about borderline and knowing I'm not alone in how I feel. Sometimes I need to stay away from all things related to it and just completely distract myself. It sounds like you could do with some distraction at the moment so if you enjoy documentaries by all means watch them but something unrelated but interesting like wildlife or history. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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May 02, 2014, 09:35 AM
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I would keep talking and keep exposing yourself in a SAFE place and try to handle these emotions in a safe way. You don't have to do it all at once, but avoidance won't help you get better.
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May 02, 2014, 09:45 AM
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 In terms of my own personal experiences, I'm usually at risk of being triggered by others when I hear of a situation that's scarily close to my own. Otherwise it's my own issues and difficulties surrounding them that upset and potentially trigger me.
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May 02, 2014, 09:49 AM
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May 02, 2014, 10:28 AM
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I do feel triggered reading or hearing someone talk about bpd or issues relating to it. I think I feed off my own misery because I do trigger myself on purpose sometimes. I think it can have both good and bad outcomes.
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May 02, 2014, 12:59 PM
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I can usually handle it in this forum, but not in other places. That documentary just tore me apart and idk even know why. It's not like they brought up anything new... It's not even that I just EXPECTED **** to get worse... I was actually trying to push all those triggers. At least I think so. I don't even know anymore. I'm scared man... I hate this. I hate myself, I hate how people can't see how much I'm hurting. I haven't heard from the one person I care about since tuesday. I can't believe she's doing this to me. I've always done everything for her and she swore to always be there for me. She knows how much things like this kill me. I ****ing hate her for not caring as much for me as I do for her. Oh gosh... I'm sorry about this rant. I just want to die really really bad right now. Sent from my GT-I9505 using Tapatalk |
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May 02, 2014, 01:01 PM
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May 02, 2014, 01:02 PM
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