5) You know you are Borderline when...

when ur bf says he feels grumpy and its not because of you, but someho u still feel it coukld be u n then triggering a anxiety attack and cycle of self hate?? or is this just me? xx

It's almost always my fault in my head. My motto has been, "Are you mad at me?" I try to stop myself from saying it but thinking it still happens.

yep i am sure thats my catchphrase too xxx

In spite of how well things are going in your life at the moment you still find yourself thinking you offended someone because they happened to go offline after you made a complaint about something. >.>

Not spiraling or freaking out, just one of those things barely under the skin, kind of annoyance. If you get my meaning.

I totally understand

I feel like a child all the time even though I am 27



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when after 14 years being misdiagnosed, you realize that when diagnosed and reading an email from your shrink about it practically tells the story of your life.

You periodically realize that you're living over the same mistakes again, and again, and again. WTH aren't I learning what's right and wrong doggone it?? UGH!!

When you're invited to a 4th 'get together' by someone you used to like (used to know) and you refuse, and even tho he accepted the lame excuse, you beat yourself up for hours...should you have gone? Should you go? Can't change a mind now.

And anyway...what's the point?

When even the easiest decisions are just turgid turmoil. And you just want to follow your confusion into the safe corner and lick your wounds. Again.

How obnoxious of them to invite you! I hate it when people invite just for the sake of doing the 'neighborly' thing.You made the right decision because you didn't want to go. Don't beat yourself up!

note - this is why I hate phones.... and any other means of getting a hold of me. Although I have made some concessions for certain loved ones, lately. LOL

When you like someone and instead of putting on a flattering front, I sabotage the conversation by putting myself down or over sharing.

I don't know why I do this!! It's like I subconsciously mess things up because I don't feel worthy or something... But it's so embarrassing

Too many appointments with your T makes you feel more obsessive but too little appointments and you lose track of trying to improve yourself.

>>>Sent by me from me.

When you appear to have different personalities but you're aware of the parade.

When ya duno what's worse ... Feeling ignored or getting attention from people / praise ... And again the cycle of self hate starts cos ya can't handle the emotion xxxx

You meet someone new and you either want to hide all of your true feelings or tell them all of your problems so you can get the rejection over with faster and there is no in between.

Yup I agree side blinded lol xxx

When all you do is to please others and yet they leave you when you can't.

When you're slow to complain about some unfair situation, because you're afraid that your behaviors may have been the root cause.

I'm fed up of pleasing others, they can go **** themselves. You end up being hurt anyway. People can either love me for who I am or piss off! I don't go around being nasty to people no matter what bollocks the media says about BPD, we are ****ed up cos others piled their own **** on us until we couldn't carry it anymore and broke into pieces and then got swept into the gutter cos we were no longer useful. I'm sick to death of beating myself up. It's time the boxing gloves turned outward and knocked the assholes on their ***!

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This is one of the reasons my ex just dumped me. Your post made me cry (in a good way...I think.)

When you want to "hug" and "thank" every post because you relate to it so much.

Don't worry Hun. If he loves u he will fight for u but u will have to help urself somehow... I'm trying to and I think my bf is seeing this too xxx it'll all work out in the end

Feel like the person I'm in a relationship with is not really in a relationship with me and feeling insecure everytime she talks to someone else and mentions past relationships. But terrified to say anything to her about it cause I know that never does any good so I just internalize it to death. Worse after she goes back home when we've been hanging out and I'm by myself with my thoughts and this ache in my chest.

That's EXACTLY what I did, man. After 2 months of crying, and now 1 month and a half still just getting out of my room in the dark to personal needs, therapy, and psychatrist consults, losing 30 pounds from not eating, trying to reach out for my 'friends'' who all left me flat when I couldn't be of any use of them (bandmates, drugs, money, my house so they could use it to get high) and yet I had to lie to fit with these m*******ers who still called me 'freak', 'loser', 'primadonna', 'sucker' etc. they didn't do *****. And when I questioned their friendship they told me to go f- myself. I then blocked them all from my facebook, my phone,. everything - I have friends from other countries, very few, through the internet, but NONE here imn my country anymore. I'm taking care of business and healing myself so I can find true friends here, to start all over, and they'll have to take me for what I am, other wise they can eat a d**k.

Starting all over at 34, but at least I know where I stand now. And I know better. and I know enough that as I improve my condition, I'll be able to act reasonably but I've established ONE thing: I ain't taking ***** from NOBODY anymore Take it or leave it, hell if I care, always been alone in the end for 25 years, might as well be alone anyways if I have to be someone else than myself just for other people's pleasure.

you sit at the dinning room table smoking a cigarette and think about all the classic borderline things you have done & think to yourself " i am so borderline"!