5) You know you are Borderline when...

You're tired of the drama.. and yet, you find it difficult to stop doing the same old thing.

This made me laugh in a "I so know what you're talking about" kind of way. So thanks for posting that!

My husband does this all the time and it drives me nuts. You'd think he would know me by now.

When u make scenarios up in ur head but then when the thing actually happens u get angry and still don't feel u was prepared for it even tho u knew it would happen lol

You second-guess nearly every thought and feeling you have, which intensifies the moment/s even more!

When u hold a grudge on someone from
Something seemingly innocent lol for a long time

When your T misses an appointment, and it really shakes up your world.

When you won't talk to anybody you know/knew because you feel like you've let them down and they don't want anything to do with you now.

When you have to request your doctor to sign a form indicating you can't attend a social services employment training program just to get food stamps & worry your doctor thinks you are a manipulative psycho because losers on the net say borderlines are. Feel guilty for posting about anxiety and having an opinion about posters on the net. Wonder if you really are a manipulator...try to erase all thoughts.

Have trouble ending post without wondering how not to be a complete piece of ***** & wonder what else could be said or what thoughts constitute the socially acceptable "right" way to think.

When you realize you might not grieve the death of a close one.

When you know your mother has been diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer... and you're numb to it.

When you plan your responses ahead of time to all sorts of possible conversation points because whoever said "If you don't have something nice to say..." was probably talking about you, and silence is awkward.

a house full of pets and it's only one night but still I'm miserable in the house without another person there... wondering how I'll ever live alone. Hopefully I'll learn to tolerate it.

When being the third wheel in a social group bothers you so much you have an emotional meltdown...

When you attend social gatherings and start by being a socialite, getting along with everyone, until a mood swing mid-party, and now it seems everyone is judging and criticizing you and you want nothing to do with the human race.

I do the opposite... present with an aggressive front then switch to complete vulnerability.

I'm embarrassed when I talk sometimes, because my speech can be so halting and awkward. It's like I have to have a thought, then check it, before verbalizing it. this can make for halting sentences... If I try to think of the entire conversation before verbalizing it, the moment has often passed, lol.

Of course, I do like the way Tig Notaro talks... she has actually made a habit of enjoying the awkward silences during her performances.

When u read some posts n think ' am not as bad as that' and next minute doin the nakie Olympics mid meltdown 0.0

You get excited when your best friend promises to call and you're filled with love and closeness. You wait half the night and they don't call. You fall asleep with your phone in your bed and in the morning there isn't a call. You're filled with rage. They don't love you. They can't be bothered. Your relationship is a lie.

When you can't tell dissociation from emotional numbness, because they both happen far too often.

OMG this is totally me.

When the boyfriend promises to call, but doesn't until 4 hours later. But in that 4 hour gap uve already suffered 10 mood swings and rage and full on smashing pics up. Then he calls cosh he crashed out asleep n didn't mean to n then u go back to loving him once more ! Oh the rollercoaster

When you're feeling *****y but hate other *****es on the forums.

Feel like a ******* hypocrite.

Your therapist told you to stay out of the depression and bpd forums, because the narc forum is a good filter for you.

When you feel like someone besides your real self is saying your words?

When a guy you haven't seen in 5 years tries to shake your hand at a wedding (I refused), and it upsets you.

I may have to start a thread about him....

when your doctor cancels your appointment and you think he just doesn't want to see me today, he hates me