Finding things tough...

Things have been goin downhill a lot over the past couple of days.

It reached a point where this morning by boyfriend had a lie in and didn't answer one of my texts, at which point I sent him a lot more, and became increasingly worried, resulting in a major argument with my best friend, worrying his flat mate and calling the local A&E departments.

I've also started having some really tricky feelings about feed and my own self image, and I've been struggling to find a 'middle ground' between working too much or doing nothing all day. I've been having suicidal thoughts, and thoughts relating to harming others.... Although nothing has been acted on. And my moods are going from mega happy to mega depressed very quickly. I hate being on my own, yet I hate being around large groups of people. And whilst I like someone in the same room as me, I'm not a major fan of physical contact atm, which is putting a strain on my relationship.

I don't know where to turn to any more

I'm sorry things are tough for you Jebo, sometimes when things get tough we may need to step back and let the dust settle. I know that's hard to say when we're in relationships, but sometimes space helps all of us to re-focus.
Right now I too am having relationship problems not with my personal life because I choose to be alone and single, but with my psych dr, and psych nurse who seem to be ignoring me. I may end up loosing both of them, this pluse physical health issues I'm struggling to be heard. I'm not sure what the out come will be for either problem I have, but I know sometimes we need change to get a different view.

I am sorry that you are not in a good place right now.

Things can spiral out of control pretty quickly.

I've read frequent stories here about what happens when someone doesn't respond to something like a text. It can cause a magnitude of problems and a flooding of texts in return so just know that you are most certainly not alone in this. I have this problem when it comes to people not replying to my emails ....

Finding the middle ground is challenging because it's hard for us to see the grey area. We can think in terms of all or nothing or black and white, night or day.

Your thoughts sound really serious.

I think you do need to see a mental health practitioner, sooner rather than later.

Do you have a T you can see to discuss this issue with them?

Thanks guys..... I feel a little less alone now. Still feel a bit uncomfortable with myself though.

I hope things get better for you jeramiahgirl you're not alone.

Hooligan. I don't have a T any more. I had issues with a substitute doctor, and ended up being discharged from all services. I don't have anyone to speak to anymore. I feel worthless

I'm sorry to hear you don't have anyone to talk to anymore.

We're always here at psych central to listen