Trying to cope with a mixed diagnosis

I understand completely and can identify with what you're saying. I'm also on abilify. I know I have done and said things when ill that I have to live with. I've tried to make it up as best as I can but the damage was done. With my meds I can't imagine how I even felt at the time, i'm totally different now (with meds). I've been considering dropping back on my meds but know this is probably a bad idea. I've gained alot of weight on abilify but also take prozac, klonopin, trazodone so maybe they all make you fat. Self consious to the extreme now.
I have the same diagnosis and understand what you are saying. Hope to hear from you again.

Babe, you got some big stuff going on.......

The language barrier is difficult.........sounds stupid but can your embassy help in referring you to a hospital or clinic or anywhere that speaks english? And then go from there........just an idea.....

As for your distress in dx, we have all been there........I know the debilitating fear of not "knowing what is wrong".........and sometimes too much information can be a bad thing.......overwhelming.

I have had BPD for 15 years, although now after hefty, long term therapy and hospitals, I have "BPD traits". I also have other stuff going on so not out of the woods yet.........

Yes BPD is overwhelming and terrifying........that is why you need to find someone who can clarify it for you in a controlled, therapeutic setting........

Hope this has helped, not hindered.......you are not alone

PS I was also on Zyprexa - helped control the rage and hallucinations(I also have shizoeffective). I have also been on lithium for BPD and was dx Bipolar in 2007 and put back on lithium again. It really helped control some of the really bad stuff with Borderline.......doesn't help everyone and people have nasty side effects........just some other suggestions. Anti-depressants only worked for about six months for me.......I have been on about 26 diffferent ones over the years!!

hello, I certainly can identify with your struggles in understanding BPD. I was recently dx too and am finding info on the web. I also found this site which also has a forum like here at PC; however, its based in Canada and is small compared to this site. Here is the link: (http://borderlinepersonality.ca/board/index.php ) You have to join as a member its free too but this site has a lot of info about BPD. I hope this helps...JG+

There is also these: (http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&r...t=more-results)

Lastly, (http://www.borderlinepersonalitydisorder.com/)
There are others but you mentioned time and your computer problems I hope these will help. Cya!

Hi Paddy,

I can really relate to this. I also live in the Netherlands, English is my first language (although I do have a reasonable command of Dutch now - although I have my pdoc/T appointments in English) and my recent pdoc has suggested bpd traits although my therapist disagrees - I'm not sure really - if I am a borderline I don't really meet the typical pattern of behaviours/symptoms - my T favours AvPD but this doesn't seem quite right either - people don't always fit nicely into diagnosis categories! Obviously group-based therapy is a problem without the language. With my first pdoc and first T (whom I saw for 1 session) the language was a big problem but I've been lucky to find a very good therapist who speaks excellent English and seems genuinely interested in understanding everything I have to say and where the cultures differ. I think there are therapists out there who do have a good grasp of English (assuming that is your first language). One thing about the pdoc and diagnosis. Could you not try a different pdoc but make a fresh start? Have them assess you and decide for themselves? There must be quite a few in Amsterdam. I'm thinking of doing this myself with my current pdoc because I feel he has misjudged me and he triggers me.

Hope you get somewhere with this. It's definitely worth looking around for a good English-speaking therapist - they do exist

Onzi