[avoice]

I am in so much pain sometimes. I just want to scream. Do that often they wonder why. The pain is just so much I like to take a shot gun to it and just blow it away. Instead i'm mean to everybody my family you guys who ever. So sorry about that. You guys try to help me and I push away.

[Crew]

(((((((avoice))))))))))))

I hear you loud and clear. I'm so very sorry you are in pain. I have chronic pain that I know will never stop however I do get some relieve when I listen to water and Enya and new age music even Christian music helps as well and I drift out of my body. do you have a Doctor or a pain doctor? Getting them will help if your interested sometime let's get together and exchange ideas for dealing with what somewhat helps with you and I'll send my tricks. Let me know if you need to vent.
One thing I do know is anger and blowing it out at the first person that comes to me it seemed. I burnt bridges and I don't wish that on anyone.
Venting on some ice cubes then put it on your pain. There are all kinds of treatment options out there and hopefully that will help your pain. I just know how badly I am in pain right now. My entire back is beyond the pain scale! I am going to go do a Grounding Skills Group and hopefully maybe I'll get some relief. I am again so sorry your feeling the need to get angry versus stopping your pain. Hopefully you will agree cause I bet you have some good ideas I haven't tried.
I'm with you so your not alone avoice. Let me know if you need to chat or pm me if you would like. Take Care, Crew

[avoice]

Yep I burned bridges everywere. I do love the sound on my water turtles with the pump filetring in and out with the sound of the water. Yes I do see a pain Dr every mouth after mouth.

[justjoanie]

My partner is going through this. She hurt her back a couple months ago. He pain level is getting worse every day. She stays at a level 8 or 9 most of the time. It's down her leg, and making her foot go numb. Numb, but the pain is still there.
She had an MRI yesterday, waiting to get the results today or tomorrow. The doc won't put her on pain management until the results are in.
Since she's been hurt, she's been taking alot of it out on me (or at least that's the way I feel) She shut down completely, then started seeing more of her ex, supposedly as friends. Then she moved out of our home. And she's been pulling away from me a little every day. I keep standing beside her, and doing everything I can to help her. I'm hoping that when she is put on pain management that things will go back to what they were before all this happened.
Can you give me any advise, as pain sufferers, what I can do to help her? Is there a way to save "us"?
Any advise would really be appreciated.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

((((Joanie))))

I'm so sorry that she moved out. Wasn't her ex at her all the time to go back to her? She's obviously taken advantage of the situation.

Not everyone takes their pain out on others. I am in chronic pain 90% of the time when I'm awake. Luckily my nightime meds put me out these days and the insomnia because of depression (and pain), is reducing more all the time. I don't take it out on my partner; he is so loving and supportive, so helpful and caring and he does so much for me that I couldn't take it out on him. It could be personality too I don't know?

But with your gf I think that the main issue is her ex and the pain though chronic and unrelenting is a secondary issue. I wish you luck with it

[mj778]

Hi avoice,
I am new around here, but I admit I do the same thing. Especially in the beginning... my poor kids have to deal with my extreme mood swings depending on if my pills are working or not. I don't know how I would have it made it through if my boyfriend didn't go out of his way to stay in a good mood no matter how bad mine got. Over the years it has leveled off to only really bad days. I don't know how long you have been dealing with pain, but it could be something to look forward too. The little positives always seem to make the bigget differences.

mj