deffenetly one of those days where you just think what's the point?

why am I here?

I honestly don't know why things are so bad half the time, I think half the time I'm just fed up of life and thinking... oh not again, and half the time
i just focus on all my regrets

like today.. not really much of a reason to be depressed,

but you know... today I sat in a chair and filled up on junkfood

go me. where's my medal. that sort of thing

(yes this post had nothing to do with pain but in a venting mood)

So in addition to advanced osteoarthritis all over my body, an excruciatingly painful right hip from an old injury (that requires a cane for walking), fibromyalgia, and all the chronic pain associated with that, now to top it off, I've got a rather nasty dose of cellulitis (staph infection) in my right foot!

The antibiotic to treat that is a beast (making me nauseous and headache, etc.), so my PCP phoned in an anti-nausea medication and I went and picked it up this morning. As I was taking it, a rather strange thought popped into my mind and I couldn't help but chuckle over it ...

As long as everything stays on my right side, I'm going to be okay, but if anything ever goes wrong with my left side, I'm totally effed!

Humor Intact!

[Kiya]

Oh cake! I’m so sorry so hard to lose our furries.
Thinking of you!

Originally Posted by cakeladie

Thank you Liz. She knew. She was on the stretcher and they where taking her to the back the whole time her eyes had been closed while we talked to her and gave her treats but when they lifted her up she opened her eyes and turned her head and looked directly at me. It broke my heart and I still can't stop crying. We are having her cremated but I am not sure I can go in and pick up her ashes. The night before she crossed McGee slept in the dog house with her. She didn't want to come in to her kennel. Now McGee is sleeping between me and hubby everynight kinda like he is afraid something is going to happen to us. He's glued to be during the day

[lizardlady]

Checking in. Too pooped to say much..... SSDD

[katydid777]

The cold, and rain are the worst for me.

[lizardlady]

Bad day today. Even my hair hurts....

[Travelinglady]

Gentle hugs to you all. I'm really hurting with all the rainy weather we're having.

[lizardlady]

SSDD yet again....

Love the hair hurts thing, lizardlady, but sorry you're in that much pain!

Cold Weather IS NOT My Friend!

[~Christina]

Sorry I havent been posting just seems like it makes my numerous pain things worse. Probably just in my head ..

Super gentle hugs to anyone needing one..

[GreenMan13]

Cooler weather plus lots of rain lately, I've been a great big ball of ow lately.

[katydid777]

I am in pain every day. I was diagnosed years ago, but I don't think this is my problem, but I can't get anyone to listen to me.

Too much activity yesterday and today ...

I'm hurting so bad right now all I want to do is curl up in a ball and die!

I thought I lost my grabber- pannicked today when I couldn't find it

turns out it was hiding under a box.. thank god for that. I would have been so annoyed and frustrated if I'd lost it.

feel in a lot of pain- especially with my legs

Funny (not ha-ha) how it is that I can get around a grocery store with just my cane and a small cart on one day, then just a day or two later I need to use one of those motorized cart thingies ... I know people think I'm faking or nuts, but I'm through trying to explain ... Unless they ever go through it, they'll never "get" it, but I hope that they never have to go through it in order to "get" it!

physical pain is bad (not too bad and unmanageable, but still bad)

it's the mental/ emotional side I'm struggling with at the moment
back to feeling suicidal

legs locked on me this morning- both of them at a completely un expected time

thankfully the rest of me isn't too bad

[wuca]

I haven't been on the boards for a pretty long time. I have spiraled so far so fast this time so I thought I would come back to the boards. I have such a heavy, worn out hopelessness. I hate this when the black dog visits there is just not getting out of the pit.

[cakeladie]

My mom passed away today. 😥💔

Sometimes (Like Right Now) My Pain Be Like ...

The cold front hasn't even arriven yet (still a day or so out) and I'm already feeling stiff & brittle ...

If I were to fall down, I fear I'd shatter into a million pieces!

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by cakeladie

My mom passed away today.

I'm so sorry cakeladie... I wish there were something I could say or do to help how you're feeling. I'm here, sitting with you.

everything is painful today.

everything

this morning, I felt the physical age of 107

my back was hurting so much, and I was bent over in pain. more than one time I thought I was going to just " go over", my legs were starting to go too and even before breakfast I had to sit down because the pain was just too much- needless to say I felt very very irritable

my breakfast smelled amazing,, but smells arn't always reliable- it didn't taste as good as it smelled (it was nice, but nothing special), maybe because I as still in pain and couldn't properly enjoy it

then checked my emails and watched recess: the movie (I found it was on, and I rememberd watching recess in the 90's,) it was a nice memory- so that killed an hour

and then I have done nothing for the rest of the day, accept for posting here and listening to the christmas music- still in pain too, (not as much as earlier but still a lot)

mood's good and depression is low