[lizardlady]

Saw my pdoc Thursday. Told him about at the stress at work and the fact I'm tired crabby and cranky lately. I was concerned my antidepressants might be pooping out. I don't feel depressed though. He told me that any person under the kind of stress I mentioned would be crabby and cranky.

I do what I do because I want to help "my kids". It used to be that was the goal of the agency I work for and the people I work with. Everything is about numbers now. One more year 'til I can retire. I'm more than ready.

Very BAD Pain Day Yesterday!

It Totally Sucked Out Loud!

Possible trigger:

Those Days Scare Me Because I Seriously Consider Making A Final Exit On Those Days!

I Also Cuss A God & The Doctors I No Longer Believe In A Lot!

[lizardlady]

pfrog, I have those days too.

[lizardlady]

I started a thread on the social forum to acknowledge what I've accomplished while I'm home. I tend to get down on myself for what didn't get done rather than acknowledging what I got done.
I did stuff that was very physical the last two days. I'm trying to stick to less physical stuff today.

Originally Posted by lizardlady

I started a thread on the social forum to acknowledge what I've accomplished while I'm home. I tend to get down on myself for what didn't get done rather than acknowledging what I got done.
I did stuff that was very physical the last two days. I'm trying to stick to less physical stuff today.

I just saw that thread!

what a neat idea it is too

[lizardlady]

Thanks RV. I'm pretty ok ne to beating myself up when I don't do enough, and there's never "enough". Fibro and CFS leave me drained so often. I wanted to focus on what I've done instead of what I didn't do.

[Travelinglady]

I must have done something "too much" lately. Lots and lots of pain today.

[lizardlady]

I'm sorry to hear that Trav.

hating this hot weather and the fact we've not got any rain

though it's good for my pain. I just feel..... hot.

[~Christina]

Yesterday I woke up literally crying out in pain, I was barely able to get from bed to chair to bathroom. I couldn’t even take a deep breath and I was frantic.

I’m so grateful today is just a tiny bit better, least I can take a deep breath

Gentle hugs

feeling cooler today (typical british weather), but that's good- yesterday was too hot

pain is okay. couldn't sleep because of the usual trouble lying down, byut yeah, I'm good..

I started today with a pannic attack.

really not cool

I am also hurting severely from my shower

[lizardlady]

I must have done too much the last few days, either that or it's the storm out in the Gulf. Dragged myself out of bed this morning exhausted and sore. In keeping with my decision to focus on staying positive I've given myself the day off. Going to spend the day on the sofa with a book.

[childofchaos831]

What book?

Originally Posted by lizardlady

I must have done too much the last few days, either that or it's the storm out in the Gulf. Dragged myself out of bed this morning exhausted and sore. In keeping with my decision to focus on staying positive I've given myself the day off. Going to spend the day on the sofa with a book.

enjoy!

what do you plan on reading?

[lizardlady]

Am reading The Loch by Steve Alten. It's a fictional story about Loch Ness. The author presents an interesting take on Nessie.

I loved at a radar pic a few minutes ago. I suspect the glare is from change in pressure related to TS Barry.

Originally Posted by lizardlady

Am reading The Loch by Steve Alten. It's a fictional story about Loch Ness. The author presents an interesting take on Nessie.

I loved at a radar pic a few minutes ago. I suspect the glare is from change in pressure related to TS Barry.

actually that sounds interesting

what does he suggest?

(I believe nessy exists. )

I am not in much pain today.

probably because I am doing nothing to warrant the pain in the first place.

I got a voice mail this past Monday from my PCP's office staff stating that she will no longer be seeing her private patients.

This just 10 days before my next follow-up appointment!

The reason? ... She wants to only serve as a supervisor to residents and interns from the local medical school now!

Furthermore, the doctor she recommended as a referral isn't even on my insurance plan!

Had this been due to an unforeseen family or medical emergency, it would've been more understandable and not hit so hard.

But the way she went about it (and the reason why) is totally unprofessional in my opinion.

Naught I can do about it, though, except start looking for a new PCP and start over.

It took me quite a while to start trusting the medical community again ...

Needless to say, what little bit of trust I'd built back up over the past few years just took a huge hit!

I sure hope she's teaching better than what the hell she just practiced right there!

I just returned from church.

mostly okay, though some small babies (and I mean really small) spent a lot of the service running about, crying, and generally screaming (which begs the question why allow babies in a church?)
I sat their for as long as I could, but then started to feel a panic attack coming on so took a taxi home.

[lizardlady]

10 days notice via voicemail?!? No wonder you are angry. At least give people more notice and do it in writing. I wonder if something happened and she is no longer allowed to see patients?

That said, I'm going to play devil's advocate. I think y'all know I'm a therapist. I've known people who stopped seeing clients and only do supervision because they are just too worn out by the profession to see clients. Maybe something similar happed with your doc?

[lizardlady]

I just left a post in the social forum with a blatant request for hugs. Something extremely stressful happened at work today. I'm afraid it's going to trigger a flare. Anyone have any ideas how to avoid a glare? Please don't tell me not to stress over it. Way too late for that

[lizardlady]

*sigh* The flare started....