Sigh

I've been feeling quite good for the last couple of weeks. But an unwanted text from my ex, has brought all those horrible feelings and head racing back. Logically, I can see the text is really no big deal, but there it is stuck in my head and I can't shake it off. Was supposed to start reducing my meds this week and now I feel scared to. I really don't want to go back to those bad days of constant overwhelm.

Do you have to keep open communication with him?

Unfortunately yes. We have 2 boys and I try to be civil with my ex, for the sake of them. Although I try to have as little contact as possible. Then he's nice to me and I let my guard down, but he then bullies me, nothing obvious, but just subtle, so that I end up confused, about whether I am being overly dramatic or not.

It was a few days ago now and my head is more settled again. So decided to go for it, in reducing my meds. Feeling a little dizzy with a headache this evening, but hopefully it will pass soon.

One day at a time. Ever thought about confronting him on how you feel about being bullied? You have to have boundaries with him and he needs to know what those are. What's acceptable and what's not. If he doesn't respect those boundaries, continue to remind him of them. Having kids involved puts things on another level and much harder to deal with ex's. You can't really control how he acts, but you can decide on how much you are going to let him get to you with his words. Glad you are feeling a little better.

Im sorry about this. Its good that your being the stronger one and have decided to be civil to him... There are people in my life who treat me like dirt and put me down, but i have no choice but to stay with them.
Its hard but just remember that you can get through it.