[Trace14]

Thinking about what I've been through and what others have been through I have to feel that I'm fortunate in a way. I had some how put away all these traumas feeling that they had been dealt with for soooo many years. Then one event opened Pandora's box and they all spilled at one time causing me to feel as is if I were inside a tornado with all these unresolved memories circling me. I can't get out, the swirl and power of the memories keeps me trapped in the vortex.

Why I feel fortunate is that if I had been dealing with all these things for as long as they have been going on I don't know where I would be right now. Would I have been strong enough to endure the constant and sequential traumas that followed? So now at 58 years of age....in a sense I'm thankful that all this has surfaced in the past 4 years and not a lifetime. Does that make sense? It's like I'm just starting this healing journey now. This is why I have so many questions about therapy, expectations of therapy and want to know what the plan is. May look online and see if there's a book called beginning therapy for Dummies I've needed one.

I mean how do you go from a lifetime of being told not to share what goes on privately to to discussing every little detail. Being told that "little girls should be seen and not heard" especially when you are talking to therapist that are young enough to be your child. They have no idea what being raised in that generation entailed. Yes, they have the book smarts and can read studies. But how can they truly understand?

Just rambling here.......

[pegasus]

I remember asking my T why everything imploded and came out when it did. I had blocked it all successfully, or so I thought and then something happened and it all came tumbling out. T said it was because I was ready to deal with it. Onto a healing path...

I spent 6 years in therapy but it took a long long time before I started to trust him enough to start sharing. I think we spent a good year on learning coping strategies before delving into the bad stuff. You are welcome to Pm me if you want to know more about therapy.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by pegasus

I remember asking my T why everything imploded and came out when it did. I had blocked it all successfully, or so I thought and then something happened and it all came tumbling out. T said it was because I was ready to deal with it. Onto a healing path...

I spent 6 years in therapy but it took a long long time before I started to trust him enough to start sharing. I think we spent a good year on learning coping strategies before delving into the bad stuff. You are welcome to Pm me if you want to know more about therapy.

Just doesn't seem fair that the mind stores all this and then at the worst time decides to drop the A bomb on your psyche to bring you to your knees and change the world as you knew it to be for most of your life. Then find out that so many changes need to be made now to gain the footing again.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Trace14

Just doesn't seem fair that the mind stores all this and then at the worst time decides to drop the A bomb on your psyche to bring you to your knees and change the world as you knew it to be for most of your life. Then find out that so many changes need to be made now to gain the footing again.

You describe the feeling well ...

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by pegasus

I remember asking my T why everything imploded and came out when it did. I had blocked it all successfully, or so I thought and then something happened and it all came tumbling out. T said it was because I was ready to deal with it. Onto a healing path...

I spent 6 years in therapy but it took a long long time before I started to trust him enough to start sharing. I think we spent a good year on learning coping strategies before delving into the bad stuff. You are welcome to Pm me if you want to know more about therapy.

There's a CBT book for Dummies I was saying it as a joke but there really is a series of therapy books for Dummies Wow.

My problems with therapy is that it was new to me until about 4 years ago and I didn't know enough about it to ask questions. I was in such a fog I did good to find my way to the office. So it gave me a very bad impression of therapy in general as it being a waste of time and that they were not helping me enough. I still feel that way but at least now I can see it a little more clearly, and understand why the VA has such a bad name with veterans.

[Fuzzybear]

I recommend the two books I mentioned in the other thread and also anything by Dorothy Rowe, But I still have many questions about therapy. I believe it’s about the quality of the therapist and the “fit” between the therapist and client.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I recommend the two books I mentioned in the other thread and also anything by Dorothy Rowe, But I still have many questions about therapy. I believe it’s about the quality of the therapist and the “fit” between the therapist and client.

I agree with you.