Why is it

Why is it I have been able to hold it all together until now? I know I'm just letting myself down feeling sorry for me. I mean there is no reason to let go and be sorry for myself because everything seems to be going ok. I'm learning how to parent both my grown children and my aging parent. I just want to stay in my room and not go out.

I.wish.I.could.do.the.same..

griffenfirefly69

Some days are tough when reality shouts at us. Taking a break to cry, punch pillows, or whatever can be real helpful. No shame in that at all. Allowing yourself to go through the emotions is healthy. Cry away ~ gentle hugs to you

(((( griffenfirefly ))))

It really sounds like you need a great big hug... I don't know why sometimes we just crack when everything seems to be going fine... But it happens, and when it does you must take extra care of yourself... You are supporting a lot of people in your life, is there someone that is supporting you?

No support but thanks for the hug I really needed it.

Thanks for the hugs. I know there's no shame in crying, shouting or punching pillows I'm just afraid that if I start I may never stop.

{{{{Griffy}}}}} sending hugs your way.
eventually the crying stops...probably cos your head hurts....and you do somewhat start to feel that lil release which does calm you down a bit....we'll at least thats how it goes for me. I just recently lost my biggest support system (best friend)due to my stupidity.. so.. I rely on my friends here. Im a pretty good listener/reader if ya need it.
all my best

Is therapy an option for you? It really does help to have someone that can be there for you and support YOU for a bit...

You are welcome

It's hard to tell if the sentence written after the thanks is serious or a joke. I don't want to make assumptions and get my response back wrong.

I have a heck of a time allowing myself to shed tears. I HATE it. So, I have to verbally remind myself (often) that it is a healthy thing to do, to relieve the stress. I have a much easier time punching pillows and shouting, but that isn't real easy for me to begin either.

I am much quicker to let out the energy physically, with exercise. I go for 7-mile walks on bike paths...in nature. Nature brings me peacefulness. It takes a few miles of trees, birds chirping, leaves falling, and squirrels chattering to just remind myself that the Earth is so much bigger than I. The Earth has beauty, some continuity with elements and life. My problems are momentary....the Earth will keep rotating...life will go on.

That is how I get through the dark days. Not trivializing myself. It isn't that at all. Instead, focusing on life exisiting for all sorts of creatures. All sorts of habitats, dealing with their own stress. And it goes on. It will continue to go on. Make sense??

I appericate the time you take to offer up suggestions and I do understand. I am not as able to get out right now as I have been in the pastl. A few physical problems. I do enjoy the outdoors and the animal life that's in it. I give thanks everytime the wild turkeys come through the yard or I see the deer or red fox in the neighbors yard up the street. I just find it so hard to hold that good focus for more than a little while. I wasn't joking about the crying and I worry that someone might try and put me in a padded room. I could use the rest but might just give up the fight and stay and that would not be fair to my family. I'm glad I found this site. It is good to see how we all try to help each other. I think that's important and who better to understand than someone who has or is going throught the same thing. This is a bad thing to say but it also helps to see that there is always someone how is going through worse than I am. I can't think of works to express how much it means to be accepted.

at times it helps to be by your self,yet at the same time it can bring up thoughts of how bad things really are for you. talking to people help, just like what you are doing now. getting away from the problems can help like takeing a walk to clear your head. sometimes it helps but other times it can bring you down too. listening to music helps, but some songs will create feelings that you don't want to feel to. for me, being depressed most of the time ,I find the only way is to sleep. the lonelyless,dispair just makes all the problems wrose. you can talk tome if you would like,I will help you the best I can...ok