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Why do I feel so numb? i do not feel happy or sad, nor like crying or like laughing at the cxxp i have to deal with, i feel nothing emotionally, not depressed,not anxious, not pxxd off just numb! like hey what will be will be, why bother trying to fight the inevitible or the system.

I didn't even bother getting out of bed today, i looked out the window, it was raining, i thought do i really want to go (by mobility scooter) 4 miles getting wet to sit in an office and do what i could easily do in bed on my laptop, i quickly answered no, made a few phonecalls and here I am 5 pm and still in my comfy warm dry bed, no music on, no noise at all, just me and my laptop, hey i haven't even said goodmorning to my gerbils yet!

it's like I am giving up

but hey i never give up a fight of injustice so what is going on, why am i feeling so empty, so numb, so 'i don't care' ish??

Are there issues in your social life? Maybe relationships or family? Feeling like you're not living up to your potential? Lonely?

something has to be the cause.. I have gone through this phase before, at that time I didn't realize, however.. I was having issues.. I felt that I wasn't living up to my potential.. kind of like "What the hell AM I doing? Really"

I cannot say I have completely cured these issues, however I have gone on a spiritual path in order to figure out what the heck I want to do with myself in life. Im still not there, but I feel going on this journey to figure myself out is something I feel as if I AM doing.. instead of questioning it.

You may not have this issue at all, it could all be chemical. Thought I'd just throw this one out though.

i call that brain shut down, on overload. sounds like depression tho u don't feel it's that. r u on any new meds? do u have a pdoc or T?

Hi Yellowted ~ It's called plain old depression. I feel like that lots of times, even tho I'm on an antidepressant. Some days it just gets the best of you. Some days are better spent in bed -- there, you can de-fog, de-numb and de-fuzz (if you have a cat ) . I can't work (disabled) so there are days I don't do a darned thing. Those are few & far between cause I don't want to get into the habit of doing that or my old bones will set up -- but I think it's good for us to pamper ourselves once in awhile. I'm assuming you ARE on an antidepressant, aren't you?? i hope so!!

Don't worry about feeling numb -- unless it goes on for more than a week --- then get yourself to the doctor. I wish you the very best, my friend. Take care. Hugs, Lee

yeah i call it a "mental health" day!!!!

Thankyou all for your replies

Mandypaige... I hear you loud and clear when you say [Feeling like you're not living up to your potential?] i certainly do not feel i am living up to my potential, my brain is working but my body's given up! i am soo missing my old life, teaching young children, exploring new places, travelling, rock climbing, just being independent, being able to chose when i wake up or if i want to have a bath each morning. I just can't get my head around the fact my life has changed so dramatically over the past few years from owning a pre school nursery to being so dependent on a carer to get me bathed, dressed etc! its like i am grieving for the life i have lost

Hi Lee, [I can't work (disabled) me too so there are days I don't do a darned thing. Those are few & far between cause I don't want to get into the habit of doing that or my old bones will set up too i try to do stuff but like yesterday my body just refuses to co operate then i give myself a hard time-- but I think it's good for us to pamper ourselves once in awhile too true, guess i have been so tied up trying to fight for my rights that i have overlooked this lately. I'm assuming you ARE on an antidepressant, aren't you?? nope i have had some horrific allergies from antidepressents in the past so my doc now believes that if he says i am not depressed enough times it will just go away!!

madisgram.... you could well be right, brain shutdown , overloaded! sounds very much like me!! too much fighting the system to get my home adapted, fighting to get a recognised diagnosis which portrays my symptoms, fighting for a physio to atleast keep me as able as i am, fighting just to get upstairs to the loo/bath or to bed every night...... the list goes on and on and on!!!!

Thankyou all again for taking time to reply