Feeling defeated

I've been trying to cope with some emotions of a past issue that i just remembered recently. I'm in therapy and have a great Therapist and I am doing my best to try to keep my head above water. I've been writing some poetry, going out with my husband etc, but I don't want to be around people, no more than one a time. I just simply can't handle it right now. Up unti today I had not felt like giving up and giving in, but now, I just simply don't know how much longer i can hold on to what I am trying to keep together. I feel like I am losing my mind, myself. Even while typing this, It seems like someone else is doing it. I am at the point where I just don't know what to do ! If this post sounds too crazy to read, just skip it!

Hello, carinheart. Please print a copy of your posts for your therapist. Often opening up is easier when there is some degree of anonymity. What you say here might well help your therapist better help you out of this malaise.

You do not sound crazy. You sound like someone going through a very difficult time. Someone who needs more help than she is getting. If there is one small thing you might do to make today a better day, please consider doing it.

A day at a time; a step at a time.

Good luck.

I did just as you suggested, I printed my post out and i'm going to see her tomorrow. I just have this feeling in the pit of my stomach like i have done something horribly wrong or something bad is going to happen, I just cannot shake it at all. Tonight, i have to stay awake only a few hours more then i will go to bed! I may try writing a poem or something, if i can get some inspiration from something! Thank you Byzantine for responding

I am defeated!

Your post does not sound crazy at all. I think printing it out and taking it to therapy is a good idea.
Sorry I cant provide any other advice
Just hang in there and stay strong. Life has its ups and downs things will get better.