[crystalrose]

I have an overwhelming feeling of loneliness at the moment. All my close friends have turned away. My closest family members hate me at the moment, I only have two close friends. My church friends are not that kind to me anymore. I dont fit in at church. I am always the sick one, the disturbed one, the untrustworthy one, the one people look at my name and think oh my god what is her problem. On facebook I write things and people take it the wrong way and flame me and get really angry.

I wish friendships offline were as easy as online. I am sooo soooo bored and alone all the time. My sister hangs out with my friends more than i do.

[Can't Stop Crying]

It's tough to feel lonely....can you go for a walk or something? a change in environment might help.

[OrangeMoira]

((((crystalrose))))

I'm sorry for what you're going through. I've been there. You're not alone in the loneliness.

Are you able to be vulnerable with people IRL? Do the people at your church realize how sensitive you are? Even though you say you don't fit in, I would hope they would still show you kindness if they knew you were hurting.

Did something just happen on FB or at church to make you feel especially down today, or is it just one of those days? Sending you hugs. I hope your weekend ends better than it started.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

i relate to feeling as though ppl turn away from me.

I also opened up an account on fb last year and immediately deactivated it for the reasons you shared. Ppl on there can be so cruel.

Loneliness is something else; it can really feel punishing.

I try to go out at least once a day to clear my head and be around ppl, even if I don't interact with them directly.

Billi

[celloplayer]

Lonlieness can happen with or without people around you. There are times i feel more alone in a crowd of people than if i am in a room. I am a professional musician and work in orchestras in large opera and concert halls. The orchestra pit is very small and crowded, and you sit close to your stand partner. I recall many times i would sit with 60 plus musicians in it, there are times just before the house lights would dim that i would look out and see a full house of 2500 to 3000 people in front of me, 60 people around me and maybe thirty plus people backstage and feel totally alone. Then in my room alone i would feel it was easy to reach out. So don't push yourself to be around people if you are not ready. Try to find one or two real people in school, or family that you can share with, get the phone number of someone you can speak to, even a hotline person at first so you can feel stronger. Once yopu feel stronger you will feel less alone, it is not a matter of numbers it is how you feel inside.

[Emotionally Dead]

I understand how you feel completely.

I feel lonely all the time, even though I do have a couple of close friends. Other than that most people don't keep in contact with me, but if they see me somewhere it's "Hey man what's up how is it going!" then I never hear from them on facebook, through my phone, nothing. I don't quite get it.

My other problem is the relationship aspect of it. After my most recent ex and I broke up (which I needed, she wasn't right for me) I have felt real lonely and needed someone. I guess I don't put enough effort into finding the right person but hoping they find me.

So anyways, I know how you feel and I am real sorry you're going through this, you aren't alone though. If you ever need to chat I am here and you can PM/Email any time.

[Corianne]

Humans are social animals--which seems cruel to those of us who are introverts, or otherwise feel like we don't fit in. I can offer the same trite advice that I'm constantly getting--smile, be friendly, be outgoing, etc, but that doesn't really cut to the heart of the matter. We crave other people, but it's sometimes hard to be with them.

The best I can do is say don't give up! Things are hard, but they'll get easier, eventually. And, there's a very good possibility that your friends haven't turned their backs on you as badly as you think. In the mean time, there's nothing wrong with hanging out with family. I consider my sister as my best friend, and one of my few confidants.

[SadNJNY]

Hi crystalrose,

I can certainly relate to the boredom and loneliness you mentioned. I myself feel very alone and isolated at the moment, with very few close friends and my sister for support.

You mention in your very first paragraph that your close friends have turned away. But, you then say that you still do have two close friends. What about reaching out to either/both of those two people? If you feel that they haven't turned away, something tells me that they're probably very likely to be supportive and understanding. An added benefit is that they could (indirectly) make you feel somewhat better about the others in your life.

As for facebook, you aren't the first and certainly won't be the last to voice concerns over it. It's a very tricky beast indeed. You're not alone. I've heard more than a few people say how uncomfortable that site can be at times. AND I too have had people read into my posts there the wrong way (or vice versa). FB can be a hazardous place in that regard, so I really don't think it's something you should take personally. It might do you some good right now to simply stay off there for a little while.

I wish you the best!