i feel like i am screaming but noone is hearing me! I feel like everyone "thinks" i am ok, but I am not ok. I am dying on the inside. I don't even feel like my T even sees it. Or maybe she does. Afterall she even said today that "you are a wreck on the inside aren't you?" But I still feel like she isn't hearing me loud enough. I don't even feel like my husband who i am around hears me. Why do i feel like this? anyone else feel this way? My stomach feels nervous, anxious, tied up and it has "butterflies" in it all the time. HELP ME!!!

[love2drum]

Hi Carinheart, I hear you. You are very important and how you feel is very important. Sometimes just being a "wreck" is too general to get fixed right away? Validating how you feel can help. It's not a forever thing, it will pass. I know it's awful to be in. And, we are here for you.....do you journal your feelings? I have been for a couple of weeks now, and it's been very helpful for me. I can see when I have those bad days, and so I can also see when things will get better, and maybe what things may have contributed to my getting that way, though, for me it's more of an "agitated" feeling, and being irritable for no reason.
There's light there at the end of the tunnel

Originally Posted by love2drum

Hi Carinheart, I hear you. You are very important and how you feel is very important. Sometimes just being a "wreck" is too general to get fixed right away? Validating how you feel can help. It's not a forever thing, it will pass. I know it's awful to be in. And, we are here for you.....do you journal your feelings? I have been for a couple of weeks now, and it's been very helpful for me. I can see when I have those bad days, and so I can also see when things will get better, and maybe what things may have contributed to my getting that way, though, for me it's more of an "agitated" feeling, and being irritable for no reason.
There's light there at the end of the tunnel

Hi love2drum

Thank you for replying to my rant of a post. I do write in my journal. Not on a daily basis though. I had been writing some poetry to get out some feelings but i am at the point to where I can''t even do that right now. My focus is not there at all.

[disguise123]

go to your T.
& tell her exactly in no uncertain terms.
Be strong. Write it down if you need to.
I can not stress to you how much i have let myself down in the past
By not expressing exactly what was happening to me.
Its so hard.
But do it for yourself.
Xxxx

[Leed]

Hi dear carinheart ~ I sure know what you mean. I feel like that sometimes too. It's an awful feeling. I also journal -- but like you said, there are times when I can't even do that.

So I go in my bedroom, shut the door, lay on my bed, and put my face in my pillow and SCREAM my fool head off -- while I'm kicking my feet on the bed!!! This lets me let off alot of steam & frustration -- and i keep it up until I feel somewhat relieved. It really helps!! I guess it releases some chemical in my body or something because I most often feel MUCH better afterwards. And by screaming in the pillow, the cops don't get called.

Try it -- maybe it will help you too. It's worth a try. God bless. Hugs, Lee

[love2drum]

Originally Posted by carinheart

Hi love2drum

Thank you for replying to my rant of a post. I do write in my journal. Not on a daily basis though. I had been writing some poetry to get out some feelings but i am at the point to where I can''t even do that right now. My focus is not there at all.

Hey, we alllll need to rant now and then! LOL (Just your turn)
The reason I bring up the journal is to not only get your feelings out, but it also is a place you can go back and see things objectively and maybe see triggers that you might not have seen before....anyway, just a suggestion... It's important to feel "heard", and can be quite frustrating to feel that you are not being heard....by journalling you might be able to see more clearly what role you are playing in the inability to be heard (not saying it's your fault or even half your fault) but if you are contributing to it, even in some small way, you would want to recognize that....

hope things are better for you today?

[love2drum]

Originally Posted by Leed

Hi dear carinheart ~ I sure know what you mean. I feel like that sometimes too. It's an awful feeling. I also journal -- but like you said, there are times when I can't even do that.

So I go in my bedroom, shut the door, lay on my bed, and put my face in my pillow and SCREAM my fool head off -- while I'm kicking my feet on the bed!!! This lets me let off alot of steam & frustration -- and i keep it up until I feel somewhat relieved. It really helps!! I guess it releases some chemical in my body or something because I most often feel MUCH better afterwards. And by screaming in the pillow, the cops don't get called.

Try it -- maybe it will help you too. It's worth a try. God bless. Hugs, Lee

Haaa, you are too funny Whatever works! I've done it too (not in a long while, but, you're absolutely right! It DOES help! LOL

I saw my psych doc yesterday and felt like i was finally heard! My anxiety level has been out of control and today i finally feel a bit on the normality side of life, if only today i will take it. I know a pill don't cure anything but it helps take the edge off if only a little while. And that little while is enough to help keep me from screaming on the inside... Thank you love2drum and Leed ...your replies have not gone unnoticed at all.

hugs