[LittleForgetMeNot]

feeling that it's all just time to say good bye but I just can't. I thought this was over and done with WHY am I holding onto it so much? I keep overcompensating for the loneliness, addicted to attention good or bad. There is a sick feeling inside my stomach when I think about it and it's just not fair I want to feel loved, safe, and wanted again. I don't know how to move past anything, I don't know how to just forget. The only way I was ever capable of forgetting was putting someone else in that place.. but there is no one to put there.

[LittleForgetMeNot]

I'm trying to talk to a friend but they're busy sleeping/at school and it's impossible. I feel selfish to suddenly get so impossible at such a difficult time with exams but.. I don't know. I feel so alone that I almost went to talk to the very person who's destroyed me just so I could make friends and have someone to cry to..

[Emotionally Dead]

There are plenty of people here willing to talk to you. You aren't alone.

Wishing you the best.

[LittleForgetMeNot]

I know, I just get into these moods at the most random time and half the time it's when no one is around to talk to.

[shezbut]

((LittleForgetMeNot))

Finals are stressful. Every semester, every year in college, I always got very sick right during finals. It was miserable! While I was very sick, I had to"suck it up" and force myself to study and take the exams anyway.

It's the first thought that popped into my head ~ as I read your post. Perhaps you feeling overwhelmed, lonely, and desperate is like the physical misery I underwent during my finals week(s). The human body can only take so much stress.

After a while, you pick up on how your body reacts to the stresses in life. Now, when I'm getting sick, I give myself breaks wherever I can. This helps ease the stress and the intensity of misery.

I hope that your misery eases soon! Perhaps writing out how you are feeling would help you feel a little better. Writing your thoughts and feelings out might help you gain more of a clear perspective. Sharing what you've written with your T can really help you cover issues (avoided or forgotten about) more completely....and gain some closure, hopefully.

Best wishes to you!

[Emotionally Dead]

Originally Posted by LittleForgetMeNot

I know, I just get into these moods at the most random time and half the time it's when no one is around to talk to.

I've said many times if you ever want to talk you can PM me. We all go through this, I am going through it right now. I know it sucks but you just have to find someone to talk to to forget about it.

[LittleForgetMeNot]

I don't have a very good T at the moment, and I think part of this loneliness is because I'm not in school. I'm not meeting new people, or enjoying life. Recently I've gone back to "collecting" online "friends" which really is just me bouncing around from person to person, generating a lot of attention but not making any attachments. I love attention, but as soon as I realize they don't really get as attached I get a bit lonelier.. Plus, me gathering lots of people to talk to is also starting to generate some hateful attention, and while a few days ago I didn't care because attention was attention, my moods are settling down, and attention is no longer just attention.

I want life to go back to how it used to be, where I felt wanted and loved and needed. I feel like I'm just another person in the background again.. and I hate feeling that way. I hate feeling like I've been forgotten, I hate feeling that I'm forgettable.