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Old Nov 05, 2011, 06:33 PM
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Thank you Happycheeks for my hugs. I think others think i am stupid b/c i tend to come back here and write to her......even tho i know she can't read them or even know what i'm thinking and feeling for her. I guess i am still upset....i will be ok tho.....no worries. It's ok..there isn't any advice that can be given hun so no worries i know. massive hugs back
You're welcome She's in heaven and she's in peace away from all of the hurt. Wouldn't your friend want you to be happy? I know you would be upset because you miss her. Sorry if I write anything offensive.
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Old Nov 05, 2011, 07:17 PM
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You're welcome She's in heaven and she's in peace away from all of the hurt. Wouldn't your friend want you to be happy? I know you would be upset because you miss her. Sorry if I write anything offensive.
Thank you!! I know she is hun.....she believed in God and asked for prayer before the ending of her life I know shes in peace...i just wish i was too.....thats all. She probably would want me to be happy but i don't know how to be right now.....i have nothing to be happy about. No worries im not offended
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Thank you!! I know she is hun.....she believed in God and asked for prayer before the ending of her life I know shes in peace...i just wish i was too.....thats all. She probably would want me to be happy but i don't know how to be right now.....i have nothing to be happy about. No worries im not offended
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Old Nov 05, 2011, 07:31 PM
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I hope you can be at peace too
Thank you but i don't think i will
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Old Nov 05, 2011, 07:32 PM
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Thank you but i don't think i will
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Old Nov 05, 2011, 07:44 PM
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I'm sorry to hear about that. We're here for you.
Thank you.....i'll be fine.....i have to be....
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Old Nov 05, 2011, 08:38 PM
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was just thinking about her today...
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Going through grief is such a very personal thing. It's difficult to handle because it's so different for each person. There us no set pattern to know how to handle it either & when we know how horrible the person was feeling that they felt no other choice than to end their life when all around were trying to make them understand how important their life was to others, it makes it that much more difficult. Coming to peace with situations like this sometimes never does happen....most of the time the best we can do is accept it for what happened & accept our emotions rather than try to fight them knowing that they are appropriate feelings to have given what happened. As long as we don't allow those emotions to control our life to the point where we can't function because of them, they are appropriate.

I think coming to your thread here & being able to express your feelings is a wonderful healing way to handle your grief. Sending you many 's & lots of caring understanding & lots of
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Old Nov 05, 2011, 08:45 PM
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was just thinking about her today...
Kris....i always think of her.......i post here for her......will do till i know i'm ok to stop or if i disapear for some reason.....just like to make it so i still talk to her even tho she wont read it or see it.....its my way of dealing with it i guess ((((((((((((massive hugs kris))))))))))
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Old Nov 05, 2011, 08:51 PM
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Going through grief is such a very personal thing. It's difficult to handle because it's so different for each person. There us no set pattern to know how to handle it either & when we know how horrible the person was feeling that they felt no other choice than to end their life when all around were trying to make them understand how important their life was to others, it makes it that much more difficult. Coming to peace with situations like this sometimes never does happen....most of the time the best we can do is accept it for what happened & accept our emotions rather than try to fight them knowing that they are appropriate feelings to have given what happened. As long as we don't allow those emotions to control our life to the point where we can't function because of them, they are appropriate.

I think coming to your thread here & being able to express your feelings is a wonderful healing way to handle your grief. Sending you many 's & lots of caring understanding & lots of
Thank you eskielover for your comment and hugs. Just finding it hard atm and this always seems to come up when i feel this way...i know i will be fine and get pasted this....i have to....i have no choice...It'd why i like coming back here and posting....kinda helps me. Sending hugs back, thank you!! notspecial
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Old Nov 06, 2011, 04:26 AM
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yeah spech, i think about the people I have lost over the past couple years, and the thoughts make me feel like they are still alive somehow, at least inside. I constantly think about my best friend in person who i lost a year ago. monday will be 1 year anniversary. its not a bad thing at all to keep talking to her, its a good thing i think. it helps. it certainly helps me with all the loss. it makes me feel like I am honoring the person I lost by never forgetting them. love you spech and love you too angel...
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Old Nov 06, 2011, 10:16 AM
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yeah spech, i think about the people I have lost over the past couple years, and the thoughts make me feel like they are still alive somehow, at least inside. I constantly think about my best friend in person who i lost a year ago. monday will be 1 year anniversary. its not a bad thing at all to keep talking to her, its a good thing i think. it helps. it certainly helps me with all the loss. it makes me feel like I am honoring the person I lost by never forgetting them. love you spech and love you too angel...
((((((((((((kris)))))))))))))) Massive hugs hun......i just like to keep letting her know things even tho she wont know really. I'm sorry about your your friend. Thank you kris.....love you too kris!!
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Old Nov 24, 2011, 05:31 AM
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5 months and 3 days ago today. (((( e )))) miss you!! Love you loads too.
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Old Dec 25, 2011, 10:14 PM
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I miss you erica!! I'm sooooooooooooooooo glad you became my sister on here....you have no idea what hole is left in my heart that you are gone....we mustn't have been that good for you to want to stay with us....you didn't let us try!!....WOW i'm just missing you loads....You knew how to light up a room when you came into chat....you sure knew how to make people feel welcomed....you sure knew how to give the best hugs EVER!! I miss seeing you around, i miss talking to you, i miss how you made me feel but most of all i miss you giving me hugs better and the support you gave me when times where so very hard for me....now people ask me to let them in but i find it so very hard after loosing you You meant more to me than you will ever know!!
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I miss you erica!! I'm sooooooooooooooooo glad you became my sister on here....you have no idea what hole is left in my heart that you are gone....we mustn't have been that good for you to want to stay with us....you didn't let us try!!....WOW i'm just missing you loads....You knew how to light up a room when you came into chat....you sure knew how to make people feel welcomed....you sure knew how to give the best hugs EVER!! I miss seeing you around, i miss talking to you, i miss how you made me feel but most of all i miss you giving me hugs better and the support you gave me when times where so very hard for me....now people ask me to let them in but i find it so very hard after loosing you You meant more to me than you will ever know!!
Hey special,

I read this thread and I want you to know my heart goes out to you. Erica definately sounds like a sweet girl and a good friend to you and what you're feeling is perfectly normal. It's only been a few months and grieving someone without closure is a very hard and painful process. I had a similiar experience a few years ago... a good friend of mine (and I have very very few real friends in real life) passed away similiar to how yours did. It's still painful to think about but I can promise you with time things do get better... you are doing the best thing you can do and grieving by honoring her in this thread.

Talking to you in chat I can tell you are a very caring and loving girl and I know your friend wouldn't want you to be in pain right now... you need to focus on yourself and know that over time you can find happiness again. I hope you had a great Christmas and your new year brings you that happiness!
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Hey special,

I read this thread and I want you to know my heart goes out to you. Erica definately sounds like a sweet girl and a good friend to you and what you're feeling is perfectly normal. It's only been a few months and grieving someone without closure is a very hard and painful process. I had a similiar experience a few years ago... a good friend of mine (and I have very very few real friends in real life) passed away similiar to how yours did. It's still painful to think about but I can promise you with time things do get better... you are doing the best thing you can do and grieving by honoring her in this thread.

Talking to you in chat I can tell you are a very caring and loving girl and I know your friend wouldn't want you to be in pain right now... you need to focus on yourself and know that over time you can find happiness again. I hope you had a great Christmas and your new year brings you that happiness!
Thank you Dusty...this is just my way of still feeling her being here...it conforts me sometimes even though i know she cant/wont be reading this but at least it's an outlet for me and i just like to come here now and again just to talk to her just like in chat...i miss her being in chat...just isn't the same...hope you had a good Christmas and i hope you have a good new year!!
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