[coldwutlulz]

What's the point of caring? He is going to destroy it anyways. Like he did now and i want to kill myself. Just because i said he was annoying. and hes been bothering me about that. everyones annoying even i. ikm terrible person. I hate being a tteen girl cuz everyone assumes it's pms. pms should not make me wwant to kill myself. or affect me lonhg after my period ended. why care about something he was goiinhg to destroy anyways? help

[coldwutlulz]

I dont want to die because i have duties at school but parts of me dont care. im not allowed to think that hes annoying or feel anything arent i? if i do he it only causes more pain. hes annoying but at least hes not a jackass. its ok for him to destroy my things but its not okay for me to destroy his. i am jackass ***** terrible person. he said at least he wasnt a jackass.

[roads]

Who made him judge?

He sounds like something of a jackass to me. Don't know who he is, but I DO know you are equally empowered with him to have feelings. Your feelings are every bit as valid as his or anybody else's.

Have you given him permission to judge you? And why in the world should his judgment of you affect your desire to live?

You sound like a person I'd much rather know than he is. I don't like people who go around judging the worth of other people. No one has that right.

Please think about why you've given him so much power over you. After all, he's just a jackass.

[Yoda]

I am sorry that everyone won't take you seriously and blame it on PMS. You'll find much more support than here at PC.

[coldwutlulz]

He is a close family member. he asked me if i thought he was annoying and i said yes. then he starts harassing me about it. Shoved Me, locked me out of the house, asked me if i cared if he threw some of me things across the room-he did throw down a clay statue i worked on, and afteer all these he kept asking if he was annoying now. he then said at least he wasnt a jackass. I think it was because i didnt answer him because i couldnt muster up the strenth(it could be depression-although i havent been diagnosed) and came out like a cold *****. he then blamed my attitude on pms.

[faerie_moon_x]

Hi, I wanted to check up on you. I just saw this post today. I hope things are better today. I am worried for you because you mentioned suicidal thoughts. Fight the demon, okay? Don't let it get you. I was a suicidal teen, too. You can get through this, you can fight, those thoughts are temporary. I promise you can. You are a valuable and important person.

Don't let this guy tell you otherwise.

He sounds like a very large jackass in my opinion. Throwing things and having a temper tantrum, and locking you out for being honest about your opinion is very jackass behavior. Either that or he's a three year old. It is his fault for even asking you to begin with if you thought he was annoying. People should realize that if they ask a question like that, then they are walking right into the possibility of getting an answer they won't like.

And blaming PMS is such a jerk thing to do.

I'm not a doctor but it sounds like depression or something is going on. You should see a doctor and find out what. There is help out there and you deserve to be well. You don't have to fight alone.

[coldwutlulz]

I'm tired. I kept falling asleep in class today. I've been tired for weeks and even if I do sleep for eight hours, I'm still tired.
I'm sorry if my grammar was horrendous, I just had a limited time to type and the cell phone makes it hard.
I'm going to ask my counselor for an evaluation for a possible mood disorder and dissociation disorder. Hmmm, maybe I should just ask for a psych evaluation. It can cover a lot of things.
I was supposed to get evaluated a few months ago but we just got a counselor instead. I honestly have no clue as to why we didn't get one. Father kept calling to set up appointments but no one answered. At least now I can ask my counselor.

[needfixing]

you need to tell someone who will llisten and believe what your saying.
this relative has overstepped his boundaries. heck he's a bully.
i validate you (((hugs)))

[faerie_moon_x]

Keep poking at the councelor to get a psych evaluation. That is what you really need done. Especially whe you're a teen people tend to think you over exagerate what is going on and you don't get the help you need. So don't give up on this. At least it sounds like you're dad is trying to help you, too.

[cin1]

it is painful to care about someone that doesn't care back. i have felt i hated him for it. if i don't care about him, there really is no reason to be where i am. i am trying to grow up (after years of being child-like).

[coldwutlulz]

Yeah...I see my counselor tomorrow, so hopefully I won't chicken out and not ask.

[coldwutlulz]

Originally Posted by cin1

it is painful to care about someone that doesn't care back. i have felt i hated him for it. if i don't care about him, there really is no reason to be where i am. i am trying to grow up (after years of being child-like).

Who is him?

He kept asking me if I cared if he threw my things across the room or destroy them. I kept shrugging my shoulder because if I answered yes there was a possibility of him destroying my things and if I said no, well he would destroy those things. He asked me if I was becoming a nihilist, which I don't think a nihilist is someone who doesn't care. Although I could be wrong.
He destroyed my clay statue after I admitted that I find my younger annoying sometimes. I think they were laughing and I broke down crying. He is my older brother.

[coldwutlulz]

He said he was sorry! why am i so mad? It was all because he said i thought no one cared about me. like the way he treated me yesterday and before is gonna make me think people care. now i'm even more cautious around my friends. i shuldnt be mad

[faerie_moon_x]

Be careful. People who behave the way he did and then apologize and make it seem like you're wrong to feel as you do (mad).... that's a big bright red flag. Be very cautious with this person. It's a sign of possible abusive behavior. I don't know this person and I'm not there with you and don't know the full relationship. I would just say watch out for this type of behavior.

[coldwutlulz]

I didn't ask for an evaluation, but I did print out a copy of my Sanity Scores and Depression score and gave them to the counselor at the end of my session.
I keep scoring somewhere around the 50s-low 60s.
Oh well, I see her in two weeks. Hopefully that would give her enough time to look over my scores.
I was going to give it to her at the beginning of the session but I think I didn't want her to dismiss it in front of me.
Just two weeks...

[faerie_moon_x]

You did a good thing! That is exactly what those scores are for. The whole point is to use them along with treatment, so giving them to her was a good idea. If she does dismiss them, then I would say seek a new councilor. You're on the right track!