i hate myself and want to die

Hi Kris,

I understand what you are going through. I've tried to do the self hypnosis relaxation on YOUTUBE.COM. And I also try Yoga and it really does help my mental well being. Today I'm feeling like I want to die too and that's why I am responding to you. Thank God neither of us are sucidal but I sure know how it feels to think it would be easier to die than to constantly deal and make the effort of getting through the next minute, hour and day everyday, all day long. Like it doesn't stop. I know what it's like to always think, like I can't stop thinking of what I don't like about myself. If only I can stop or control my thinking I wouldn't be in such a mess emotionally. I hope I helped you feel a little better. Tell me what you do to try and stop feeling hopeless? I can use your help too. Thank you, Christine

My suggestion is to find yourself a "chubby chaser"; they're out there. All my GF's have been big girls. My good fortune is that many women enjoy having a crossdresser in their life. I'm not saying you should necessarily seek out a "CD" like me, but there is someone for everyone. Expand your horizons.

Try Craig's List with an add like this: BBW, age ___ seeks chubby chaser age ___ to _____. Let's meet in a public place and get to know each other. Contact me via Craig's List and tell me about yourself. Email me your photo and I'll send you mine.

Trust me, it works.

Hang in there sister!

xoxo,
Terri

i know the fealings very similar im a person of faith and i think sometimes is my faith alone that has helped me to survive and maintain i do not maintain well at all sometimes my responcablity goes in the craper and i respond negtivly it sorta sucks cause others dont realize its not you being a problem its problems getting to me ifail to deal at time but lean on faith that dosnt say they wont be bad times some times all i feal like i have but thee are rays of sunshine we fail to see at times
im a mess physicaly and mentaly but i am a work of Gods Grace in progress must strugle to maintain and survive keeping faith and prayer real and close and that body mass thing it said same to me as well i dont think it can mesuer mass of musucle like a diatican can so dont take it to heart so bad just use as a tool to work with you could have lot more muscle weight than water/fat like i do ya looks difrent in merror my mirror lies to me all time only breaks me down when i listen and stop beliving.
in our prayers rob