[Letitia15]

I thought that I was over my depression, but it seems to come over me all at once, without warning. I have so much to be happy for, but it feels like even though I know that in my head I don't care. It doesn't register. It feels like I live this normal life, that shouldn't be stressful, that a normal person wouldn't find stressful, but somehow it becomes to much for me to handle and I shut down. I'm angry and sad all at once for no reason. There's no reason for me to feel this way. People are asking me things and trying to help and engage me and I just can't make it out of my own head to reach out. I feel stupid for saying this.

[Miswimmy1]

Don't feel bad for saying it. Sometimes we have to talk to others, let things out.

it sounds like you are very depressed. And with depression, sometimes there is no logical reason for why we feel that way, so don't worry about talking about it. I suggest you see a psychiatrist. They may put you on an antidepressant. I was put on one about a year ago, and it changed my life. Sometimes, we can't do it on our own, and we should get a little assistance. There is nothing wrong with asking for assistance. Whether you take the medicine or not of course is your own call. But hopefully u will be open to trying it? It can really make a diference. Best of luck to you!

[jforest02]

Like Miswimmy1 said there is nothing wrong with needing a little help. At the same time I know how hard it is to reach out. You Never know how people are going to respond. Maybe they will be supportive or maybe they will tell you to suck it up, and not be a baby (which has happened to me, and that just hurts). Its just important to remember to not be little yourself, you matter and sometimes you need to put yourself first. Depression is something that will always be coming back, if you suffer from serious depression it is something you could have to face for the rest of your life.
So I would definitely suggest trying to talk to someone, and medicine really is not that bad of a thing. Best of luck to you though, I am rooting for you =). If you need someone to talk to feel free to message me, I really do hope that things get better for you.

[Leed]

I have to agree with everyone. A therapist is called for on this. Having recurring depression means you need to talk with someone about things. Depression is a serious illness and it isn't going to go away by itself permanently.

It's possible you have clinical depression too, which is when the chemicals and hormones in your body don't work right and you need medication to level things out. But only a psychiatrist/MD can determine that.

So please seek help, Letitia. And please do it soon so you won't be suffering any longer than you have to. I wish you the very best my friend. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

[jemmalee]

Letitia15 I'm sorry to hear your having a hard time... I will say that I too feel that my depression was gone and it has recently come back. I just started seeing my therapist again who also suggested I see a psychiatrist to help me work through my anxiety and depression.I'm not currently on any medication but if a doc thinks its best wat this point I'm not sure I will argue! I'm glad you posted on here and don't feel.stupid! You never know when someone else might feel the same way you do. Keep your head up and keep posting.

[Tsuki632]

I feel the same way. I have a great partner, good job, idyllic childhood. . . but I still feel like crap. It doesn't make sense. I have learned that depression doesn't make sense. After 20 years I still get blindsided by bouts of depression. It does get easier, but it still sucks.

Work hard at believing that it will get better. Meds and therapy can help. Never feel stupid for sharing how you feel or for having those feelings. I'm new to this forum, but I'm rapidly learning that it's a safe place to share and vent.

I wish you strength