Life has been a roller-coaster lately. I'm blessed to have a family that loves me and doesn't stuff my body into a dumpster somewhere in Kalamazoo by now. But really. In the same ten minutes, grief. And joy. Peace, and chaos. Minute by minute. Healing washes over. My hears aches with raw anguish. Then restoration. In my sleep, nightmares. When I wake, tears of joy to be alive. I am definitely not bored ever. Kinda wish I was though. New normal? I'll take any normal. Hope this is not the new normal.

[Leed]

Hey, I live in Michigan - why would they dump you here in Kalamazoo? LOL Just wondered. Why not California, or S. Caroliina?

Just kidding. Boy, it sounds like it chaos in your head. It is in mine too but there's never any FUN to it, and it's certainly not "nice" chaos. There seems to be two people "in there" who are always arguing! I wish they'd just plain SHUT UP!

Keep us posted on how you're doing. I hope you're okay. Hugs, Lee

Thanks my friend! I sure will

[80vette]

Ditto on the two people!

[AngelWolf3]

It is hard when your emotions are swirling about like crazed animals in a cage. I hate roller coasters, especially the ones in my head! (like I am sure you hate yours, as well!) I am sorry you are going through this! I hope that maybe for you, the rides can become merry go rounds, or something more fun! (trying to keep it light too!) But seriously, I am glad that it sounds like your family is supportive, or at least is loving, that is great!
I am glad you posted.
Keep us updated...

I know that's right! Lol I feel like I am living for the first time. I had been in bondage for over half of my lifetime. Lately I have had wisps of a feeling I faintly remember having when I was a child of about age 3. I remember it was a clear blue sky, the bluest sky I have ever seen. Not a cloud in sight. I was swinging on a swing in a beautiful area, I don't know exactly where. The grass was brilliantly green, as if every single blade had taken 1,000 years to construct by a master artist. Each one was perfect. I swang and swang, my hair carelessly but happily dancing in the breeze. I felt, innocent, pure, whole. I remember that memory. I felt that feeling for the first time in probably, 25 years, about a month ago. It didn't last very long, but boy, I noticed it. It had been hidden by another, "doomed" feeling, that came to be my normal state of mind shortly after that swing memory. I am glad to be alive, and every day holds new experiences. I am glad to be living a sober life. I am finally, free. Sincerely, Glinda Gail

[AngelWolf3]

wow, that was a beautiful memory! I could actually see it happening in my mind's eye; that was written so artistically! Thank you...I am glad you shared that!

I hope there's more to come. Who knows what we can all expect in this unpredictable plane we all live on?! Excitement touches my spirit from time to time when I think about the possibilities. Yay! Ahem, pardon my immaturity. Well, we're all mature; until someone breaks out the bubble-wrap that is. Have a great day my friend, and thank you for your generous encouragement! Sincerely, <3 Glinda Gail