[layla11]

I really dont know where to post, I search thru the forums and have alot of issues, I just went back to work after being off for 3 months. I suffer depression, bpd, ptsd and others. My husband has been sick for years. Hes in forth stage renal failure and we have a dialysis maching at home. Then last week a friend of mine was killed in a housefire. Well, Im up at 2:30 this morning, feeling stressed already. This thing with my husband has been hard, I have watched him just about die several times. He is doing better, and has put on some weight. So, I do feel better about this. Ive been back at work for a week now, and notice Im already not sleeping enough and feeling stressed. Im not in real bad shape. But really dont know where to post all of my issues.

[Leed]

You're fine right where you are, or you can post in the Depression forum if you like.

You definitely have alot going on, my dear. Anyone would feel stressed and going back to work must feel like a reprieve to you -- just getting out of the house must be like a vacation! I know this has been very hard on you, and I hope that working isn't going to put MORE stress on you.

Please -- post here, on Depression, on the bpd, or wherever you feel most comfortable. We'll be there for you. Just be sure you keep posting, ok? And you might give some thought to seeing a therapist too. Therapy would be very good for you at this time. God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee

Hi layla11 - it sounds as though you have a lot of issues at the moment which i hope you're getting adequate support for. What about medication to help you sleep? If you already take something like this do you think the amount might need reassessing? I hope you are also receiving some form of counselling or therapy to help you deal with the pressures of your husbands illness as well as work. Are you on a phased return? If not then could you maybe change shifts or work less hours temporarily if your finances are ok for the moment? Im sorry to hear about the loss of your friend - we have a grief and loss board here which you might find helpful. The depression, BPD and PTSD boards are all very active and welcoming of new members too so maybe if you break things down and address each problem individually by posting on serperate boards this might be helpful? If you have a question or need advice which doesn't quite fit into any particular category there is the Other Mental Health Discussion board which receives a lot of views/responses daily. I hope ive been of some help, feel better soon.

[missbelle]

Being a caregiver is really tough. You have a lot on your plate with working and all. Have you tried any support groups for families dealing with chronic illness. This might help and you could meet new people and be able to vent. I am so sorry you are stressing!

[jelly-bean]

You are leading a very tough life right now and as the others said, some therapy might be a good thing for you. Taking care of a husband who is so very ill must take a lot of your strength. You should look into caregiver support groups. Some of them have volunteers who will come to the house to be with the patient for a couple of hours to give you a much needed break. Maybe you need to get some meds for depression and sleeping as well. Please keep posting to let us know how it's going.

[AngelWolf3]

Everyone here has had some great suggestions. I just wanted to give you hugs, since I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. Definitely keep posting. Get it out, that can help the stress. We will definitely be here, wherever you post!