Weird sadness

Anyone else ever feel a weird sadness that they can't put their finger on?

I think mine was triggered by a disappointing session with my psychiatrist. I got the impression after seeing him that he doesn't really think much of my problems anymore and thus all of a sudden I feel that I don't have a serious mental issue, which means I have no excuses, which means I feel guilty? I think this could be it.

Having said that I feel no more ready to get on with my life than I did before the session. The good news that came out of the session was that the rehab people are ready to take me in.

Second trigger might be the disappearance of a local woman and my concern for her safety. CCTV footage has been released of a man talking to her on the street and now they are looking for him. I hope they find what happened to this lady because their parents and the public need closure of some sort.

Anyway, weird sadnesses. What exactly am I feeling here? I feel like crying lol.

It'll happen IT. They'll maybe always happen but depending on some things the frequency and intensity might not affect you as much. Sad stuff goes on...I'd be thinking something really wrong with me and the world if I felt nothing. Good luck with what's going on right now. Take care IT, from the opp. side of the ol' blue ball have a good night...uhhh day.

Illegal ~ You don't know REALLY how he feels do you? They're a little hard to read, if you ask me. And even if he thinks you don't have a REALLY serious issue, it doesn't mean you don't HAVE issues, right? I mean, who among us doesn't have issues?? And why on earth would you feel guilty? Because your issues aren't horribly serious?? Umm, jeez then I should go slit my throat! C'mon. For all you know your therapist was thinking about tonight's menu. LOL We never know what they're thinking about now, do we?

Go easy -- I have a feeling that your issues are still there, and you're not cured yet. Why are you crying alot? Because you're still sick. God bless and please take care my friend. Hugs, Lee

(((Illegal Toilet)))

It doesn't sound like you are cured and simply wasting your pDoc's time. I'm sure that he doesn't look at it that way...otherwise, he would have asked you a lot of Q's, to be sure that your treatment plan was necessary.

Personally, I have a tendency to become quiet when I'm upset. My pDoc needs to watch me closely as I answer Q's. He'll then pick up on my unhappiness ~ sometimes he'll ask more Q's, to understand my perspective and check on any plans I may have developed. Other times, he'll give out a long sigh and compassionate eyes as I answer the Q's. Perhaps your pDoc was simply watching you to see how you're feeling? Be gentle on yourself.

I am sorry to hear that you were triggered by the disappearance of a local woman & the APB out on her. Those are very disturbing to almost ALL of us! It sends my tummy in a spin every time I hear APB's on radio or TV.

Go ahead and cry if you're still feeling emotional. Letting those emotions out will help you a bit! Holding those emotions in certainly won't help in any way. Gentle hugs to you, IT. Give yourself a little break. Okay?

I guess it was just a feeling I had. I pick up and read too much in people's tone sometimes, but I will see what happens in our next session. Thanks for straightening my thoughts out, shez.


Well they picked up a suspect now and have charged him and he's helped police locate her body. The horrific thing from my perspective is that I walk by the laneway where they found her things and where I presume she was killed, everyday.

I have been releasing tears but I haven't been sobbing aloud, I live with someone and I don't want them to hear. I might call a crisis line tonight, but I really feel like going out and being around people tonight. These recent developments have left me feeling really lonely. I am thinking of going past the bar she frequented, I think there will be some mourners there. Tonight is the night last week where she ended up going out and later going missing in the early hours of the morning, so it's a milestone of sorts already.

((((Illegal Toilet))))