Uuuggghhh

Still early in the morning and alreay a terrible day....just need to vent.

Still pissed off about my ex-best friend's behaviour yesterday. Haven't spoken to her in 5 months, but through a mutual friend says "I can come to her bday dinner if I want.....I just can't bring my boyfriend." FIRST why would I go celebrate her birthday when we haven't spoken in five months. Obviously if our friendship was ever to be repaired, it would not be as simple as showing up to a birthday dinner. SECOND adding in the part about not being able to bring my boyfriend just shows how immature she STILL is. One of the many reasons we aren't friends anymore is because of this random hate-on for my boyfriend. She turned 22 yesterday. Obviously still hasn't grown up. And our mutual friend sent me a message yesterday saying "Amanda told me she misses you....NOT October fools!" Like is that supposed to be funny? Amanda was my best friend for about 15 years obviously I'm still hurt by the fact that we're not friends. Why are people so immature and hurtful sometimes?

These conversations happened right before I left work yesterday. Then my boyfriend text saying a friend picked him up, so he'd be going to spend the night at his friend's since he was helping him with something. Should have been fine, but because I was already in a pissy mood this of course upset me. I spent the night feeling overly upset and curled up on the couch to watch TV and fall asleep early. But now, back at work, I'm in a bad mood all over again. My boss is agitating me, I'm on the verge of tears, and I just don't want to be here anymore

I'm sorry Nina. Amanda obviously didn't grow up like you did! What on earth does she have against your bf?? And why would she care who you choose AS your bf? It's none of her business. I know she cares about you but if you love your bf, she should be supportive of you. Unless your bf is beating you, she shouldn't be so ugly about it. IS your bf abusive??

After 15 years of a close friendship, it's hard to believe she'd be like this. This is a real shame as good friends after all those years are very very rare. I wish there was some way you could repair the friendship.

Again, I'm sorry -- I hope today is a better day for you. Please take care of ourself, and God bless. Hugs, Lee

Thank you for the reply Lee. No, she clearly hasn't grown up! Her immaturity is also one of the reasons we aren't friends anymore. I have no idea what she has against him, she doesn't even know him, really! And no, he is not abusive.

I miss our friendship a lot...I feel lonely sometimes because I was so used to being able to talk to her about anything, and I don't have that kind of friend anymore. Thanks for your encouragement, I'm still feeling pretty low

Maybe if you miss her you should see about taking a time to actually sit 1 on 1 and talk.. if that still doesnt resolve anything, then at least you can say you've tried.
As for being upset with your bf for going to his friends, and then your boss agitating you... i COMPLETELY understand.. when im upset or angry EVERYTHING... literally everything spirals into making me more irritated or upset or angry. Sending lots of Hugs your way

Thank you for your reply Unfortunatly, we already tried the one on one talk, and it lead to us ending the frienship. I'm glad you understand me being angry at my bf and boss when I was upset, I always feel crazy for feeling like that!

I get the "feel crazy for feeling like that" HAHA. I feel like a psycho sometimes...because i completely realize sometimes that I should not be mad at certain people, but i am just because im so mad or irritated! Makes me feel dumb sometimes.