Struggling with my moods

So, I've always been a moody person, but I am wayyyyyy out of control and I know it. I've always had a short-temper and been very irritable, but I think being depressed has just magnified it. I feel like I have no control over my emotions ever! This evening, I got so unbelievably pissed that I couldn't find the remote control that I was turning things over and just going nuts looking for it in the living room. I started just raging and yelling at the world, not caring that it was midnight and I live in an apartment and other people will wake up. I wore myself out after about 10 minutes and ended up with a raging headache. I really want to sleep, but I've tried laying down and I just can't sleep-- it's so hard for me anyways. I don't know what's wrong with me anymore. I'm going to recall my psychiatrist--again-- on Monday. Right now, I have an appointment for 12/5 and that was the soonest one I could get. Anyways, I just feel guilty and stupid for getting so angry over something so pointless (I never did find the remote), but I just wanted to vent.

Hi Dmparsons ,I struggle with my emotions too and even tough I dont show them outwardly I turn them inwards which plays havoc with my mind .I think ringing your therapist is a good idea but also I find to get rid of some of my emotions a brisk walk helps if only for a little while ,but anything that can give you a break is worth it .I know most days I am not in the humour to go out but I do try and force myself and actually afterwards am so glad I done it as I feel a kinda buzz and my moods are less ,hope you can find some way to help reduce your emotions but consider a brisk walk it might just help you xx

I can't say I know what you're going through, I'm not someone that struggles with rage or anger a whole lot. I mean I get angry but I believe mostly I'm able keep it together. One thing I do know about anger though is this. Anger is like a red flag that goes up and it indicates you've been hurt. Often when we feel anger and when we lash out it's our way of masking sadness and pain, I don't know if you were really angry about not being able to find your remote (it could be that I guess) but I'd say more likely that there is something more behind that anger. Anyway, I may be wrong but if I were you I would try searching deeper in yourself, see if you can find anything that has been causing you a great amount of pain. And from there try to resist being angry about it and instead try to truly let yourself feel the pain. Going through that pain is the only way you can heal from it unfortunately. I hope this helps... All the best to you.

- A