[Bamboo_RedPanda]

I'm constantly battling with my emotions. Do I allow myself to feel them or do I just let them slide away and never really acknowledge their existence? I tend to alternate between having stronger feelings (easily getting angry or frustrated, being saddened over small things, or feeling very happy) to deciding not to feel anything at all, numbing them out, almost trying very hard to make them non-existant.

I don't really understand why I do that, the thoughts tend to change behind the reasoning, but it does seem to alternate. Maybe it's to avoid hurt that can come along with them? That's why I turned them off when i was much younger, so I wouldn't have to deal with the hurt of being made fun of for being emotional.

What are your thoughts on feeling vs. not feeling? (along with all the other things I mentioned above)

i find it hard to turn my emotions off.

even when i'm anxious and depressed (and wanting not to feel that way) i find i can't turn it off

sure their's been times i've felt nothing, but those times just worry me because i get to wondering.... am i even alive?. am i okay?

i think for me i've come to the realisation that emotions are a part of life- and though i hate them sometimes, i'd rather feel totally aweful about something than not feel it. if that makes any sense

[Iamhealingme]

I was taught at a young age to not show my feelings, good or bad because it might cause my father to drink and get weird. I numbed my feelings for a good part of my life and am still working on FEELING my feelings. You have them whether you want them or not and suppressing them just makes it worse. You can feel them and try to understand the ones you don't want and big time you do not have to act on them but you have to feel what you feel, to not is to be lying to yourself.