[HeartTornOut]

I don't know what's with me. It's like I've been through so much abuse - threatened not to cry, thrown on meds if I stood up for myself as child (which they later said I didn't need), and etc....that now, even though I feel the emotions inside...I can't show them. I can't cry, I can't truly get angry....it's like I'm horrified of showing any emotion because I'm afraid something bad will happen....

it makes me feel hollow....Like I'm numb on the outside. And people think I don't care about things because I can't physically show any emotions anymore and instead try to convey them through logic and reasoning. Is there a way to remedy this?

Hi HeartTornOut...
i hate that you have had to go through so much... however it seems you are understanding that your not being able to express your emotions is because of the abuse linked with it in your past.

I believe through your therapy you will be able to separate the two. Be able to work on it the right way. Unfortunately, it takes time.

Also, sometimes logical reasoning helps others see things in a different light.

I don't know how to help really, but I just wanted to say that I care. And here on PC, we definitely do not see you as numb. But a person with a whole spectrum of emotions. Most of us here have difficulty channeling them the right way, and a lot feel the way you do.

Take care,

amity

[Wilechaser]

I'm currently going through what you're going. I don't feel a thing anymore, and when I fake emotion, especially happiness, with a fake smile, I look horrible. I don't know what to do with my life, and everyone either ignores me because I can't function properly in the society. I don't know what exactly has caused this but I'd like to get away from it asap.

[tiggerandcrew]

I too have difficulty in showing or even identifying my emotions. It has just been recently that I have given myself permission to start showing some of them. I too know that the abuse has shoved the emotions internally and that I needed to work with that through my therapy. I will warn you, be careful what you wish for. I was unable to cry, and now I seem to cry all the time even when I think it is a stupid reason to cry. Needless to say I am still working on this issue. Good luck on your journey.

[littlebitlost]

Soinds liek dissociation to me. No ideas on help but professionals....

Just couldn't click past. I swing from being overwhelmed with emotions, to seemingly observing myself from afar....