[Girl-Interrupted]

I really want to escape my thoughts that im having right now because they are getting too hard for me to control,nothing seems to be helping anymore.Things have got that hard that ive been planning suicide.Ive tried to reach out for help and its just not making a difference anymore ,I don't know what else im supposed to do ,im really struggling right now and I hate asking for support/help because I feel like an attention seeker and like im just wasting people's time ...Just need someone to talk to or a hug please?

GI x

[(JD)]

It's good that you realize the problem is your thinking. First, tell yourself NOT NOW. If you have to, you can always keep that final option, but there's no reason to do anything right now.

Next, don't feed your thoughts in this negative area.
Distract yourself with something that keeps you from thinking about anything dark. Even mindless computer games are better than wallowing in that dark spiral which only drags you further.

Remember, depression tells you lies. You do not want to make ANY important decisions when hearing lies, right?

Do thought blocking whenever the topic comes into your mind.
You haven't always felt this bad, and you will feel better before long again.
hang tight.

[RunningEagleRuns]

Dont feel like you are making problems if u ask for help... i ask for help all the time and it really helps.. good luck

[kaliope]

I hear how much you are struggling right now. you sound overwhelmed by your thoughts and feelings, so much so that you are contemplating suicide. this is completely normal, when we feel we have no way out. the idea is to find as many resources as you can so that you don't get pulled so far down. take care of yourself.

[avlady]

Wait on those feelings and thoughts, don't ever act on those negative thoughts, think positive even if it's eating a food you like or would want right now, and go from there, then a tv show, radio, cd, tape i like listening to a tape of waves on the ocean or lake it's really telaxing!!

[stainedglassheart]

Unfortunately I'm stuck in an emotional rut so I can't offer much advice but I can relate to wanting to escape your own thoughts. Sometimes I just wish the dark thoughts would stop and go away. I can also tell you that these forums have been very helpful for me. Theres a lot of good people here, don't hesitate to reach out no matter how hard it is to do so.

[tinyrabbit]

I'm so sorry you're in so much pain right now

[MoxieDoxie]

I hear what you are saying girlfriend. Planning suicide actual acts as a release valve on the pressure if though you do not want to act on it. The thoughts that loop around.....that inner critic that makes you feel bad for even taking up space can be so exhausting.

[IndieVisible]

Planning suicide is serious. If you feel you have exhausted all your avenues, and have reached out for help from your family and got none, and nothing seems to make a difference, TV, music, books, etc seem meaningless or you can't concentrate long enough on any of them. There is always the hospital. As a last resort, Go to ED and let them know how you feel! They will admit you and keep you under observation. You will receive 24/7 attention, meds, counseling. You feel very safe and protected. This will also give a doctor enough time to find what meds will help you best. So you see, you always have options! Don't give up!

[schnauzerowner]

So sorry for your present pain....perhaps visit an equestrian therapeutic ranch....horses are wonderful animals for hurting people...just don't give up....take things 5 minutes a a time...don't give up....suicide is not the answer....many will agree...

get some help...no shame in getting help!

[whovian456]

I hope things can get better for you soon hun. I've been in your spot many times before, from different circumstances of course. Sometimes I feel so hopeless and suicide does cross my train of thought. The best thing to do is to get out and find close friends to interact with, or even join an online IM chat group of supportive people. Whatever you do, although it may be hard, do not spend too much time alone. When you're in a depressive state I know one of the most appealing things to do is stay in bed and not do anything, but the truth is social isolation can be one of the most dangerous things for people suffering with suicidal thoughts. Find someone who you trust, and ask if you can talk with them, you don't have to bring up suicide if you're uncomfortable, but you can share some of the things you're going through, and perhaps find comfort in that. Keep holding on, I know it's hard, but in time things will get better, and they will get worse. It's all apart of life.