I'm sick of being a doormat

I'm sick of being patronized, I'm sick of being yelled at, I'm sick of being mocked and made fun of, I'm sick of being told I'm doing it wrong every time. I'm sick of not having the courage to stand up for myself, of speaking my mind and not giving a damn if others don't like it. About exploded today, by fortune or misfortune I didn't. I'm normally too afraid to even consider lashing out, but today I was pretty close. I fear what happens if people keep pushing me, whether it's online or off. Because I feel very close to snapping.

People have a way of getting to you (by you, I mean anyone who has experienced this). Just hang in there ATJC

You probably experienced all that when you were growing up. That is why you so senseitzed to it. Do set your boundries, leave those kind of people behind, move on.

Hi

Try not to lash out but be assertive - 'some' ppl with go as far as you let them! I used to be a bit of a door mat and never spoke up for myself and as a result I have become aggressive towards those I deem to be 'walking over me'. Trying to be more assertive and less aggressive but it would have been easier if I had just set those boundaries and been assertive to begin with...

Good luck

I did. Problem is I'm still living at home. I'd move but I have no money, I'd get a job but I don't know what kind of job I'll be getting when all I have is a high school (home schooled) education because no one ever raised a college fund for me because they thought if I wanted to go I could just raise the money myself, I could if it weren't for the fact all the decent jobs won't hire you unless you have a college degree and even those with college degrees end up working behind a gun counter at Cabalas because they can't find a job in this economy. And that's not even putting in to account the kabillion different allergies I have that just makes finding a good job all the more difficult.



FYI: Not yelling at you or anything, just releasing some long overdue steam.

Ok I will say it. Some times you need to let it out

Don't worry about funneling it or filtering it, you do too much of that already and keeping it in is like a pressure cooker, you could explode eventually with a nervious break down! So my advise? Let it out some times.

I can say the same for myself: Who is going to hire a 66yo. Retired American Indian? However I chose to be a Warrior, and take care of my self. There are ways of taking care of your self with out finding a job. And there are ways of dealing with what was said to you as child. With out internalsing it.

Good for you, ATJC.

Give it a good online scream. I takes a lot of courage to say exactly how you feel, and you did just that. No patronization, I know from experience that it's hard.

The most important word I've ever learned is "no". The hardest part was to say it with both feet directly beneath my shoulders, then to not give a crap about what the other person feels or said afterwards. Whooh. The first time I did that, I was shaking inside.