angry even though I don't have any right to be

I'm angry at people who are better than me. People who have earned kindness, adoration, and success over me. People who do everything so perfectly and are brimming with useful skills and self-confidence. People who get things done efficiently. People who meet everyone else's high standards for approval.

I want what they have. I know that it's almost entirely my fault that I'm not one of them. I know that I haven't earned all the good things they have. I'm trying, but not trying hard enough, I guess. People are still flabbergasted by my incompetence. People still scold me and remind me that I shouldn't be so happy with myself, because other people do better than I do.

I just want to be so brilliant and so disciplined and so admired that no one will ever call me lazy or stupid or selfish or not good enough ever again.

Hi, winterglen. I can understand how comparing yourself with others can make you angry. I am trying to learn to be happy with who I am and what I can accomplish, even though I am limited now.

At least you sound like you know that most people have worked for their accomplishments and since you evidently haven't, then your lack of much success is understandable.

Can you try harder and look for some things you can succeed in? Are you giving life your best shot?

Also, are you seeing a therapist? I have found that to be very helpful.

Not all of us can be brilliant and very disciplined. In some ways I guess that's good. Most people are "average."

The worst thing any one can do to themselves is comparing themselves to other people. The second worse thing is to let other people take up space in your head. Go and talk to someone. Try to work on your self esteem (banish negative thinking is key) and try to set small, attainable goals for yourself.

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