[monkeybrains21]

Sometimes I feel I should cry but I can't. The only time I can cry is when undo angry and frustrated it's either cry it demolish something. In those instances I refuse to cry especially if I'm not alone. So instead I damage my hand by punching things. Crack knuckles, I've even popped a tendon.

Does anyone else experience an inability to cry? Why is it I feel numb or angry and don't cry? My sister died in my arms I didn't cry. My life fell apart, I drank a lot to not dream and it worked at first but then the dreams came back with a vengeance. I drank more and more just wanting to die. And it wouldn't happen. Why?

[bazzinga1990]

first off i just want to say im sorry for you loss. my grandam died back in 2010 and i still cant get over it. i have experienced trouble crying or trying to cry when i need to or should be crying. ive tried watching really sad movies or listening to really sad songs but when that doesn't work i cut. i used to drink alone in my room and get really drunk but i was able to stop and im so glad but now i still have this cutting thing i do to work on. i know its hard but i also know its possible but it may take awhile just don't quit. I journel and sometimes that helps me get my anger out and also get a new prospective on things. is that something you do/would like to try?
aslo you should get martial arts gloves and a bag and use that everytime you need to plus you will get a good workout too.

[Thunder Bow]

Seek professional help ASAP. You had a very trammatic experience and you need to talk about it.

[monkeybrains21]

Thunder bow

I've had a T for 3yrs now. It's actually funny cuz I first saw her on the 3yr anniversary of my twins death. I didn't realize it til that day but I'd already made the appt. y get help ASAP? I've though about suicide a lot but I'd rather do that as a last resort.

Bazzinga

I used to write a lot. I have journals filled with poems and stories. It's funny that recently on the news they've started talking about addictions to pain meds in the military because when I was like 7th grade I wrote a poem about a soldiers addiction and how it was because if a warzone and it was what the military gave to cope.

[shabur]

I really struggle with crying. I was taught at a very young age not to cry and I've pretty much held to that my entire life.
I want to cry, I really do. I feel it, it's right there, but it won't come. I can get teary but no crying. My mother taught me well.

[krisakira]

After my best friend died by suicide I could not cry for many days. I was numb and felt like a horrible person for seeming like I didn't care. But about a month later, I heard a particular song, and it fit so well with how I felt that I started bawling for the first time about it. Maybe that will happen for you one day.

[Thunder Bow]

As I said to another in a different post thread, anger and depression go together and are hard to separate. Work on feeling better about yourself.

[monkeybrains21]

I am so full of rage right now it's making me sick to my stomach. I can't sleep. I want to cry but nothing comes. I was very calm at T today, but now I'm not. I have never in 3yrs been calm with her, and now I know y. I want pain to relieve me of my rage, but I know the possible outcome.

[Undercoverwarrior]

I'm so sorry about your losses, I also used to be unable to cry, and for me personally, it was due to severe numbing/repressing all of my emotions, not feeling anything was my first instinct. This happens to some of us. I hope you find peace.