[kala83]

so sadly most of my anger for the last few days has been caused by my boyfriend I do love him...but as of lately I have just been angry at him.

i got increase in hours at my work place going from 10 hours to now 30 and they are going to keep me at this amount of hours....which I am really happy about and I am trying to work really hard to let these people know I aprechiate what they are offering me...
and that if they do let me have more hours I am going to work really hard to earn those hours.

and I have been doing a good job with that.....but I am also still looking for another job on the side. Cause well to be frankly honest......I have too many debts and I want to have enough money that I could start helping out with my side of the household bills while i live at home with my mom but get me to a place where I could.....do this and have a place of my own too.

so I am doing all that, and i am picking up odds and end jobs. on the side to help out as well.

but now not only am I dealing all that at home....when I come home the house hardly is that real clean....lol or it can small poorly. My basement bathroom has this horrid oder in it....and I have tried all kinds of things.
and it keeps smelling badly.

I love my boyfriend to death but he has a real bad tendacy of not being very tidy he will pee in the toilet and not flush it.....and just leave it there if it does not cross his mind...and I think that's half the reason why the bathroom down stairs smells badly.

if he brings home he does not pick up after the things he brings home

since I have been working more hours I am more tired then I usually am...when i come home...and coming home to what I am is not a fun thing for me to do.

it upsets me a lot and I get really angry at him cause I have brought this up to him several times and he just does not listen to me.

i hate this feeling of of work myself to the bone at work and then coming home to a house that is not very tidy and even when I do clean it.....it doesn't really feel like it matters that I put in time to clean it....since the chances of it actually staying clean are fairly not so big.

[kaliope]

so bring it up to him in an I feel statement. I feel...when...because..and what I would like is.... make sure you just talk aobut the situation and not about him so it doesn't feel like you are attacking him.

I feel (angry, frustrated, overwhelmed) when I come home to a messy house because I have worked hard all day and would like to come home and relax. what I would like is for a little more effort to be put into keeping it tidy.

you could even say you would like if we could put a little more effort into keeping it tidy..........hope this helps......take care........

[kala83]

the issue is that I have brought this up in that kind of way to him nearly everyday and it seems to have no effect on things.....

which is why I end up being the one in the house that picks up things and does the house work...cause apparently I am the one that wants to do this and wants to get it done.

which is why my anger has been really high...I mean what else can I do other then telling him to please help me out with things.

and then he is confused when I am pissed at him.

and whenever he comes home from work he complains about how tired he is how he has had a hard day.

he was doing this on a weekend I had worked split shifts....and I was just really fuming mad....by this point cause he goes in for a few hours does his job...but then he *****es and moans about it.
and yet I put in probably more work then he does. Yesterday was my day off from work...and I went and did lawn care work for a friend of the both of ours cause I want to make and earn money I need to I have debts....I have bills.

and something else he does...he has a smoking problem....which would be fine if it was just his but I share in this cause if he has no money and he wants a cigarette he will try to get me to spend MY money on it.

and I am just getting feed up...I work hard for my money and just cause he lives with me, cause he is my boyfriend, and I love him does....not make it ok for him to ask me to spend my money on him I will feel used ...if he does that...and I tell him this in conversations all the time...but it seems like no matter how I phrase it he get mad or he takes it peronally.

I know I am mad about and I know I convey that when he talks to me but after this many times of dealing with this kind of thing from him..... its hard to deal with in a cool calm manor....and its effecting our relationship...I don't know what to do about it....I mean lol it scares me I am so mad at him all the time...I don't even want to necessarily be around him all that often when he is home...

lol and I feel odd and ****** for that cause I do love him but omg this just it needs to end I can't deal with it...hopefully this just stops.

or maybe I can have us both go in for couples therapy.

lol I am totally venting at this point...I am sorry....ugh yay for being bipolar and having all my issues and emtions splatter onto everyone....in lovely ness. lol as seen above.