[20oney]

I don't show emotions. I don't like people to see the weakness in me. Ever since, well forever, I have never spoken to anyone about anything that I feel.
I Donno. I've heard people say that if you bottle things up, it will become so overwhelming one day.
I don't feel overwhelmed. But god my shoulders feel so heavy.
I wish I had spoken to someone when I felt down and lonely. I wish I had someone who was kind and understanding, someone who wants to listen, and sympathise, someone who knows me.
Even though I have so many people around me, friends, family, partner. I feel so alone. No one around me knows the things I have been through. No one cares about what has happened in the past.
Is that how I should feel? It's in the past so leave it?
I don't know. I just want someone, so I can blurt everything out to!!!

[palerefraction]

I feel similarly. I have started to open up and started when I met my current partner, I felt like anything else would have been dishonest. however, it did not work very well for me initially because of his strong stubborn opinions. I had to deal with my stuff and his attitude besides. changing his mind about certain things has taken me a good long while because I'm not a strong communicator. if it is something you're interested in communicating, I recommend seeing someone who can help put words to your feelings that might make sense to other people. best of luck, I'm always a pm away!

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[striking]

Fear of rejection is a tough one. We all have emotions so you will not be judged for yours. Choose someone you can trust, maybe this person has expressed their personal issues with you so you can feel more comfortable sharing. Talk about small things that are affecting you. Are they supportive? Yes, then open up some more next time.

Therapy can help you get used to opening yourself to someone. Give it a shot if you can.

[IAmPete]

I feel like you have a pretty good and understanding audience at this forum. If I could suggest one thing it would be for you to challenge your idea of emotions being a weakness. I know exactly what you mean when you say it, and I have personally struggled with it for a very long time, but it isn't true. Sometimes it's easy to act like a sponge and just absorb everything and pretend like it's alright, but It'll come out eventually. It's all about if you want to be the one in control of that or not.

[Thunder Bow]

Seeing a Therapist might help you get around this. Those your with may not want to hear your problems. Most avoid deep conversations. Some of them you will never get close to.

[avlady]

yes you should see a therapist, they do care, or at least most of them, and give people great insights into their behaviors and thoughts etc...good luck

I feel the same way you do. From the outside looking in no one would know what I have been through and the emotional pain I face everyday. All my emotions are bottled up and I appear confident, stoic, and like I have it all together. I'm so self protective. Both of my parents have severe emotional problems and I was never allowed to be vulnerable or cry. I have always had to seem strong. I sometimes wish I could blurt out all of my issues and the loneliness I feel.

[CosmicRose]

That's what therapists are for They care about the past. You can unload all your feelings onto them and they will be there for you. That's their job!