[AnxiousGirl]

I'm 19 and in the past 2 years I've lost 2 family members. However, the last one was a few months ago and I'm still not over it. I don't know what to do. This relative was the only person I felt comfortable with and was able to talk about anything knowing that she truly cared. She was old but it still feels like it's all a dream and that when I go to her house she's going to be there to ask me how school is and how I'm doing in general. I see a therapist and actually I had an appointment a day after her passing. We have been talking about her more in sessions but I'm afraid to tell my therapist how much I miss her because I'm afraid to cry. I recently did exams and told myself it was all for her and got great marks and I just started crying.

Now I'm on break so I'm off school for another week and I'm trying to just calm down and relax but I dont know what else to do anymore.

Any advice ?? Thank you for reading

[shezbut]

((((AnxiousGirl))))

First, it takes time to adjust and accept the passing of a loved one. Usually, the more deeply we're attached, the longer it takes. It has been 20 years since my Grandma passed away, and there are times that I still think of her sadly. So, please don't expect yourself to just get over the loss of your loved one rapidly.

Onto your difficulty with expressing these deep emotions, due to fear. What if you wrote down how you're feeling, before going in to your T appt? Then, you could hand it over and ask that she simply reads it and moves forward lightly. Just an idea.

Personally, I struggled with panic disorder for a few years. A big thing that I learned from that experience: I must face my fears. If I don't, those fears become stronger and they seem to hold more & more power over what I do. It was initially hard to force myself to face my fears: VERY hard. But, I did it. And I made it! Each success made me feel a little better. Stronger.

Very gentle hugs to you. My sincere condolences about losing your loved family members.

[JJBX]

Don't force it. Sometimes, you just need to let the grieving happen. Gosh, I spent longer mourning pets. There's nothing wrong with needing a little extra time to work through the grief of losing someone you cared about. You will eventually be able to enjoy those happy memories of that person and those will have a bigger impact than the loss. Just try to keep those happy memories alive because it sounds this like person was a gem.

[avlady]

my condolances to you and yours too. i wouldn't be afraid to cry if i were you, it is part of the grieving process sometimes and if you have a good t she would probably be complimented by it. many people tell me i am the only one they've ever cried to or with and it is such a compliment to me and they even tell me that it is a compliment. i'm not bragging i'm very humble i think maybe that's why and i don't listen to someone and tell. i enjoy being able to be a shoulder to cry on too. it gives me a sence of purpouse, as i am disabled myself. therefore do not be afraid to cry, it is like a release valve for your health.

[vital]

Originally Posted by AnxiousGirl

We have been talking about her more in sessions but I'm afraid to tell my therapist how much I miss her because I'm afraid to cry. I recently did exams and told myself it was all for her and got great marks and I just started crying.

Oh sweetie ((AnxiousGirl)). I would go ahead and tell your therapist and go ahead and cry. I think you will feel better after that. - vital

[Crazy Hitch]